208: The Hour....

And so here comes the hour i've been waiting for all my life, or so i thought.. Years after years in school, being in this education system where examinations are pretty much a routine to us as students. Me, being one who honestly dislikes the current education system and how it's shaping our students and our society as a whole..

it's saddening to see so many people trying to achieve something, something so illusive and elusive, grades and achievements that has so little value at the end of the day.

being a student for so many years ... 2 years of pre-schooling, 6 years of primary education, another 5 for my high school years, added with 2 years of diploma and now, almost 4 years of degree. exams, at times can be a pain in the ass (pardon my language)

19 years, 19 years in this system... you'd imagine a bird trapped in a cage, waiting to be released, waiting for the day where the smell of freedom fills the air, having freedom particles bring such joy and sense of achievement.

well, now is the hour.. the day, the day i thought i was waiting for.

am i ready for it? what will i do when this cage is finally opened for me? will my wings be able to carry me forward? have i been trapped so long that freedom seems like another trap in itself?

only one way to find out i guess. step out, stretch my wings, flap, flap, flap, and take the leap of faith.What will happen? Will i miss the cage? Will i miss the other birds in the cage? Will i be able to mix around with the birds of the air?

With all doubts and questions, yet one thing i know for sure.I'm called to be an eagle. I'm made to soar, i'm made to flow with the wind. I'm made to succeed, made to be the king of the air. I shall not fear, i shall not worry, for the Maker of Heavens and earth is guiding me, and leading me to higher heights.



To all the other birds still trapped in the cage, do not fear when it's your turn to take the step of faith, even if there are vultures circling around the cage, eyeing on whom they may devour.. remember, the King of kings will definitely see you through, who knows, i might be there with Him, taking down those "good for nothing" vultures.

And yes, if, if there's anything a freed eagle can do, even if it means to be there with you, or just giving you words of courage and wisdom, i'll try my best to be there.

With love,
An almost freed eagle.
Clarence.

p/s: sry for bad "bright" signature... LOL... using a mouse can be troublesome :))



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207: Someone worth dying for.

Hi peeps, i know its been a long while... i'm on a long haul, a very long haul... as tiring as it is, i just gotta keep focusing on the finish line, afterall, let's not put all the effort to waste rite? :)

Anyways, i'll be having my FYP presentation tomorrow at 11am, do keep me in prayer.. i'd be needing all the grace i need! haha.. cuz honestly, i feel like i've got nothing to present (which, maybe, might not be the case, but i feel like that)

also, to "compensate" for the lack of updates, here's a new song i covered title "Someone worth dying for" by Mikeschair...

i was captured by it when i first heard the song, cuz i was one who once felt like i'm not worth it, i'm just another person on earth..

Through the years, the Lord has thought me and continually pursued me with His Love, and today, i'm a very much changed person by His grace.

So..

To you out there who feels like you're not worth it, that no one cares or loves you, to you who feels like life is not worth the living, that God died for everyone, but maybe, maybe not for you.. this song goes out to you :)

Below are the chords and lyrics, i hope you enjoy it as much as i do. Open up your heart, and receive His love, yes, you are so precious in His eyes, that even if it would cost Him the cross to bridge the gap between you and Him, He was willing to pay the price. God bless!

Capo 1

Verse 1 :
G Em C
G Em C Am7

You might be the wife, waiting up at night
You might be the man, struggling to provide
Feeling like it's hopeless

Maybe you're the son who chose a broken road
Maybe you're the girl thinking you'll end up alone
Praying God can You hear me, Oh God are You listening

Chorus 1 :
G Em7 C
G Em7 C D G

Am I more than flesh and bone, Am I really something beautiful
Yeah I wanna believe, I wanna believe that
I'm not just some wandering soul that you don't see and you don't know
Yeah I wanna believe, Jesus help me believe that I
Am someone worth dying for

Verse 2 :
G Em C Am7

I know you've heard the truth that God has set you free
But you think you're the one that grace could never reach
So you just keep asking, oh what everybody's asking

Bridge :
Em Am C D
Em Am C D

You're worth it, you can't earn it, yeah the cross has proven
That you're sacred and blameless, your life has purpose

Chorus 2 :
G Em7 C D
G Em7 C D G

And you are more than flesh and bone
Can't you see you're something beautiful
Yes you gotta believe, you gotta believe
He wants you to see, He wants you to see

That you're not just some wandering soul
That can't be seen and can't be known
Yeah you gotta believe, you gotta believe that you are
Someone worth dying for

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206: 2011

So, in about 30 mins from now, 2011 is ending. How was my 2011?

Well, ups and downs are pretty much the constant. But it was definitely an awesome year.

I haven't been blogging for some now, writing skills are pretty much down the drain huh? haha.. let's me just summarize my year, as what i remember.

I started it with:


0) officially "graduated" from TB
1) i've obtained my first 4.0 CGA in tertiary education
2) i went for my industrial program
3) i went to Cambodia for holidays
4) given the privilege of leading a group of students in the Christian Fellowship MMU (CFMMU)
5) i went for my church camp despite not having leaves as an intern
6) continued working for MMU as a research assistant after my internship
7) bought my new laptop

i have no idea what to say.. so, time for some pics haha:




My 2011




Computer security assignment -.-




Graduation!



Final tuition session i gave for the kids at Rumah Trinity

They must be missing me a lot now.. :|




Having Him loving you, no matter what!




Ridiculous amount of free food during my internship!




New laptop! :)




New guitar! :)




Joystick to play games :D




Vectorization of Bright Studio's logo :)




Bright Studio's custom badges :)




Honestly, there was much more this year..

Lots to thank God for, especially His faithfulness and loving kindness!
Surely Psalms 23:6 is mine! In many occasions He has taught me Isaiah 55:8. and lots more.. some to be revealed when allowed haha..

God is not done with you. :)
This year, i went through my deepest valleys, went through my highest heights.. i know, next year would be even more so.. yes, deeper valleys, and higher heights. There will certainly be lots of trainings, sometimes sweat and pain, but it's all to build me up, to be able to contain more, to reach higher heights, and ultimately, having the goal of being Christlike as i keep hanging out with Him.

Finally,
Do not confuse Light and bright. Light, is the source; bright, is the symptoms of being exposed to the Light.

1 min to 12. So yay to my last 2011 post XD



Blessed New Year everyone :)
God bless!



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205: Update.

Well, i started a 30 day project, but it looks like it's not going well so far.. haha..

it's supposed to be a 30 day prayer list project thingy..
not that i'm not praying on days i didnt post up specific stuff... but to keep updating it with a link is rather hard...

anyways,

to compensate with the lack of updates, here's an unprepared and ad hoc acoustic cover of "Through Christ" by Generation Unleashed by Chrysler and myself..

enjoy & God bless!





Chords, in case you wanna learn up the song ;)

Through Christ
-Generation Unleashed

intro:
C F C F

verse1:
C
when the darkness tries
F
to hide my way
C
Your word is the light
F
that guides my faith
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You


verse2:
C
when my heart is weak
F
and i've lost my way
C
i will lift up my eyes
F
and choose to say
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You


chorus:
C G Am
i can do all things through Christ
F C
i can move a mountain if You
Am G
are the strength of my life
C G Am
i can do all things through Christ
F G C
if You are the strength of my life


C F C F


verse3:
C
in Your presence i find
F
strength renewed
C
i found courage to stand
F
and a hope that is new
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You


bridge:
Am F C/E G X 2

Am
when every trials come my way
F
i will worship You always
C/E G
forever trust in Your unfailing love
Am
when every doubt or fear or shame
F
i shall hear Your voice within
C/E G
forever trust in Your unfailing love

p/s: one of the earliest guitar songs i learn and enjoy playing.
simple heart to heart worship and crying out to the Lord.

Conclusion of the matter:

Choosing to trust isn't merely accepting the situation.
Choosing to trust is an act of faith, not blindly,
but with a heart full of hope knowing that God loves me,
so much so, that He gave His one and only begotten Son.

What then will He withhold from me?
We may not receive ALL of the desires of our heart, but He knows best.
Love never fails.



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