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206: 2011

2011-12-31T23:59:00.005+08:00

So, in about 30 mins from now, 2011 is ending. How was my 2011?

Well, ups and downs are pretty much the constant. But it was definitely an awesome year.

I haven't been blogging for some now, writing skills are pretty much down the drain huh? haha.. let's me just summarize my year, as what i remember.

I started it with:

0) officially "graduated" from TB
1) i've obtained my first 4.0 CGA in tertiary education
2) i went for my industrial program
3) i went to Cambodia for holidays
4) given the privilege of leading a group of students in the Christian Fellowship MMU (CFMMU)
5) i went for my church camp despite not having leaves as an intern
6) continued working for MMU as a research assistant after my internship
7) bought my new laptop

i have no idea what to say.. so, time for some pics haha:

My 2011

Computer security assignment -.-

Graduation!

Final tuition session i gave for the kids at Rumah Trinity

They must be missing me a lot now.. :|

Having Him loving you, no matter what!

Ridiculous amount of free food during my internship!

New laptop! :)

New guitar! :)

Joystick to play games :D

Vectorization of Bright Studio's logo :)

Bright Studio's custom badges :)

Honestly, there was much more this year..

Lots to thank God for, especially His faithfulness and loving kindness!
Surely Psalms 23:6 is mine! In many occasions He has taught me Isaiah 55:8. and lots more.. some to be revealed when allowed haha..

God is not done with you. :)
This year, i went through my deepest valleys, went through my highest heights.. i know, next year would be even more so.. yes, deeper valleys, and higher heights. There will certainly be lots of trainings, sometimes sweat and pain, but it's all to build me up, to be able to contain more, to reach higher heights, and ultimately, having the goal of being Christlike as i keep hanging out with Him.

Finally,
Do not confuse Light and bright. Light, is the source; bright, is the symptoms of being exposed to the Light.

1 min to 12. So yay to my last 2011 post XD

Blessed New Year everyone :)
God bless!

Till i blog again

205: Update.

2011-11-08T01:20:00.003+08:00

Well, i started a 30 day project, but it looks like it's not going well so far.. haha..

it's supposed to be a 30 day prayer list project thingy..
not that i'm not praying on days i didnt post up specific stuff... but to keep updating it with a link is rather hard...

anyways,

to compensate with the lack of updates, here's an unprepared and ad hoc acoustic cover of "Through Christ" by Generation Unleashed by Chrysler and myself..

enjoy & God bless!

Chords, in case you wanna learn up the song ;)

Through Christ
-Generation Unleashed

intro:
C F C F

verse1:
C
when the darkness tries
F
to hide my way
C
Your word is the light
F
that guides my faith
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You

verse2:
C
when my heart is weak
F
and i've lost my way
C
i will lift up my eyes
F
and choose to say
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You

chorus:
C G Am
i can do all things through Christ
F C
i can move a mountain if You
Am G
are the strength of my life
C G Am
i can do all things through Christ
F G C
if You are the strength of my life

C F C F

verse3:
C
in Your presence i find
F
strength renewed
C
i found courage to stand
F
and a hope that is new
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You

bridge:
Am F C/E G X 2

Am
when every trials come my way
F
i will worship You always
C/E G
forever trust in Your unfailing love
Am
when every doubt or fear or shame
F
i shall hear Your voice within
C/E G
forever trust in Your unfailing love

p/s: one of the earliest guitar songs i learn and enjoy playing.
simple heart to heart worship and crying out to the Lord.

Conclusion of the matter:

Choosing to trust isn't merely accepting the situation.
Choosing to trust is an act of faith, not blindly,
but with a heart full of hope knowing that God loves me,
so much so, that He gave His one and only begotten Son.

What then will He withhold from me?
We may not receive ALL of the desires of our heart, but He knows best.
Love never fails.

Till i blog again

Post 204: God, are You kidding me?

2011-10-24T09:46:00.005+08:00

There were many times in life when i reach a point where i am only left with one question:

"God, are You kidding me?"

Those were tough times, times where you'd never imagine you'd stand up again.
Those were times when you feel like giving up, and say, whatever man,
this is too hard.
Those were times when it feels like you're holding a knife to your own heart. Those were times when it feels like you're ripping your heart apart with bare hands.

Saying no to things you hold dearly to, saying no to the desires of your heart.

Painful? Yea, in fact, "pain" and "ouch" are understatements.

Nevertheless, It is also at those times when you finally made up your mind and say, not my will, Your will be done.
It is those times when you say, it's painful, but ill give it another try.
It is times like these where i truly grew;

Like how an eagle first discovered their wings, stretching out, reaching for higher heights.

Was it worth it? Was it?
After all that i went through, yea, i would definitely say it was worth it.

Painful? Definitely.
Questions? Plenty.
Yet, i chose to trust in Him. I choose to worship Him with my questions..
If i could understand it all, wouldnt that make me infinite too?
Letting go in pure adoration; it's a beginning of many more.

The closest comparison i can find; is as to how your muscles grow,
it needs to be torn,
it needs to give space,
so that it's able to contain more.
an increase in the capacity.

I guess, it all boils down to this question:

Do you want to have the capacity to contain more?

When there's no test, there is no testimony.
A test, is simply an opportunity for testimonies.

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Confirmations after confirmations. mind blowing moments again and again. really, humbled to a point of no words.

I've reached a new season of life. A new beginning of superabundance and of grace.
Yet, humbled, and still learning as i walk into this new dimension of what God has in store.

Below contains quotes after quotes.

18th October 2011:

it feels like you're unknowingly stumbling into kairos time, though the situation may appear otherwise. yet, looking through the eyes of love and eyes of faith, every doubt and fear dissolves and turn into a beautiful exchange. ♥

12th October 2011:

do you remember days when you suddenly understand certain things that you initially don't? tonite was one of those nites :) It's amazing how He pulls strings together and unveiling things one by one.. awesome :D and to top it up, it is also one of those nites that you know you're reaching higher heights :) simply awesome, thanks Pa! :)

16th September 2011:

There's something about Eagles that attracts me:
1) They glide/soar with the wind
2) They pluck off their feathers and breaks their beaks so that they can always perform at the optimized level
3) With reference to the above, they have a time of "camping", a time of retreat
4) They have sharp vision, and they are darn good in what they do.

time to learn to be an eagle, and rise up on wings like eagle :)

to do list: pluck my feathers, break my beak.

14th September 2011:

to understand & discover my origin & purpose in life, in view of perpetuating myself to move forward in the destiny that was set before time

13th September 2011:

pruning is not punishment, pruning is being positioned to be more fruitful #john15 #billjohnson [http://www.ibethel.org/podcast/2011/09/06/first-things-first]

1st September 2011:

Those who did not believe did not enter the promise land, do you believe?

Random awesome quote (26th August 2011):

Food For Thought: Is the existence of anything defined by whether or not u believe or experienced it? yes: if i don't know u & don't believe u, u don't exist?

25th August 2011:

There's something about being the contact point between Heaven and earth. Partnership is in His mind, He's inviting you today!

16th August 2011:

In Hebrew, something exists because it fulfills a function. God has called us into existence, because we are to fulfill a function. Question is, what function? Wanna know more? Come join us in CF tonight, FOE BR3045, 8pm Title: Why are we here for?!

12th August 2011:

He still uses you when you feel like crap. simply to show you that it's not about you, its about Him, and He has not given up on you, so you have no right to give up on yourself.

10th August 2011:

Sometimes i wish i was nearer to home. Nevertheless, i'll be faithful at where i am, afterall, i'm placed here for a purpose, placed here for a mission. Pick up your identity today, until you're able to identify yourself at where you are, you'll never be able to live as who you are called to be.

9th August 2011:

just too many coincidence to deny the truth. awesome Daddy! :D

8th August 2011:

Living a Christian life isn't really about doing what you should be doing, its not really about doing what you know is right to do, neither is it about doing what you have been told. Rather, it is about doing what God is telling you to do. Note that i wrote "is telling", present tense, and for that, a relationship is required. well, of course, there's always a place for doing what is right, and what doing should be done, but never let that place take over what God is telling you to do now.

5th August 2011:

Jubilee

4th August 2011:

To learn to see & envision the good when things seems bad. Things are better than you think.

29th July 2011:

Identity - to know who you are, and to know it correctly.

21st July 2011:

Have you ever felt like you need a Hero to lean on? Feeling so weak and out of place? I know Someone who is perfect for that job, and hence, i'll be away for awhile.

28th June 2011:

to live FROM that realm while living in this.
its a matter of perspective, mission, and desire.

27th June 2011:

#common mistake
living FOR an identity.. instead of living FROM an identity

21st June 2011:

God: Define the relationship.

He's asking us to define the relationship we have with Him, it's not to discourage us, instead He's asking you if you'd wanna take it to a higher level, to take it deeper.

18th June 2011:

A Vénir

// A Vénir means coming soon.

Till i blog again, God bless!

203: Setup to be pursued

2011-10-12T01:09:00.001+08:00

Well, i don't think i wanna write much here, but yea, just jotting it down as a milestone :)

11.10.11
- i was setup to be pursued by Him.

A simple prayer in the morning, signs after signs after signs from morning till nite :)

also, understanding part of the big picture that He's doing in my life.
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FB statuses of the day:
1)

you asked, He spoke; time to obey.

do you remember days when you suddenly understand certain things that you initially don't?

tonite was one of those nites :) It's amazing how He pulls strings together and unveiling things one by one.. awesome :D

and to top it up, it is also one of those nites that you know you're reaching higher heights :)

simply awesome, thanks Pa! :)

i guess that sums it up, haha! its ok if you don't understand this post, cuz the intended reader is myself. haha :)

one thing that keeps me running this race despite things that's happening around me, is grounded in the truth that He loves me, and He has a plan for me, not just some random plan, but one that is awesome. Jer 29:11

p/s: i got my haircut today haha.. yea, feels weird if you ask me, but ah, ill get used to it.

Till then, with love :)

Post 202: Blessings!

2011-09-15T12:06:00.000+08:00

Well, its almost the end of my internship now, the past 16 weeks has been a rather different feel than my usual semester with assignments and studies.

Which do i prefer? Honestly, IDK! Both has its ups and downs, though i reckon that a student's life has more flexibility, in terms of time.

The past 16 weeks has been a blessing to me, free food almost every other day, no need of going through the daily motion of traffic jam when traveling to work, good colleagues, friendly supervisor, funny boss, even a job offer after i finish my internship program! If you think that was awesome, check this out! I even get to join my church camp despite "no leaves" are given to interns! Blessings after blessings!

Swapping 3 working days just to attend the church camp was simply awesome!
[ and hence, my internship period is extended from this Friday, 16th Sept 2011 till next Wednesday, 21st Sept 2011 ]

It's not just about the camp, not just about my church members, not just about my friends there.. it's all about Him. All about Him!

The ever faithful One! Majestic is His Name! Seriously very very awesome!
I had a great time up in Camerons, Chefoo Methodist Centre. Taking 4 days off and just to sit at His feet is such a bliss! Everyday was another opportunity to meet Him and to know Him more from different-different facets of His totality!

Blessings indeed!

Anyways, back to internship. I've learned a fair bit of knowledge here, not just how to write programs, or how to get work done quickly with the least effort, i've learned more about the University i belong to, i learn more about people personality, about attitudes, about life experiences, about not just having days pass you by.

It's been a blessing to me, to be a blessing to others around me even during this internship period. Such a pleasing feeling to be able to get others stand on their foot again, overwhelming joy bubbles up to see lives changed for the better, seeing lives take on its purpose again.

Heavy workload? Well yea i guess it was quite a burden to handle CF, Church, work and other commitments together. There was even a point of time where i just want to give up everything, such its just so tiring running up and down, doing this and that, all, because i did not set my focus right, because my eyes were not fixed on the Beginner and the Finisher of my faith, Jesus!

Perspective plays a major role in your everyday living.

I guess that's all from me now, its office hour anyway haha :D

I Need You More

written by Lindell Cooley and Bruce Haynes

Verse:
G Am
I need You more, more than yesterday
D/Dm C G
I need You Lord, More than words can say
Em
I need You more
Am G D2 G
Than ever before I need You Lord, I need You Lord

Chorus:
C
More than the air I breathe
G
More than the song I sing
C
More than the next heartbeat
G C
More than anything, and Lord as time goes by
D Em
I'll be by Your side
C G D
Cause I never want to go back to my old life

Bridge/Refrain:

C G Am D

More than the air I breathe
More than the songs I sing
More than anything, I need You more..

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We give You the Highest Praise!
We give You the Highest Praise!
We give You the Highest Praise!

Till i blog again

Just a quickie ..

2011-08-16T00:10:00.001+08:00

Well, its the 12th Week of my internship now, internship has been fun, though yes, tiring especially during the weeks where i had to do programming from 8 to 5..

Things has slowed down a lil on my side, though i've been involved in various administrative work, but yea, good for me, cuz i don't like doing paper work, and He provided me opportunities to work and build my skills in this area..

Later, at 11am my lecturer in charge will be coming in to do the compulsory ITP visitation.. but ah well, i don't think there'll be anything much also, well since im familiar with my work, and im in campus... haha.. just hope for the best la...

Oh yea, my lappy is on its way! I'll be collecting it on Wednesday @ Sunway area, so if you'd like to meet up, that is the time haha!

Also, look what i got myself the other day from the "Reject Shop"

The bright light is the right light eh?

Haha, i got myself 2 of those for RM36 i think, quite comfy if you ask me, quality wise not bad... quite a steal eh? sommore it's like a custom made T-shirt, so yea... awesomeness! hah!

Anyways, im off to bed, getting myself enough rest just in case i need to do any impromptu presentation or anything to that extend, don't wanna get myself caught off guard would i?

Nites & God bless! Blessed day ahead!

Till i blog again

Identity ..

2011-08-10T11:31:00.005+08:00

Identity.
Identity is something i hold on to dearly, because it defines who i am.

Why is identity important? Identities are important because it defines who you are, without an identity, or a right identity, one is not able to live as who he or she is supposed to.

I grew up watching TV and movies, there are always those movies where people got into an accident, go through some concussion, and losses their memory along with their identity . These characters often find themselves wondering and wandering, finding out who they are, in some movies, a certain antagonist character will try to give a wrong idea of who that person is, effectively handicapping the person to live as who he or she really is.

So the question is, do you know who you are? Seriously, have you ever asked yourself this question? It's quite a scary question if you ask me. But it is a question that you need to ask yourself, if you are to live as who you meant to live.

How sure are you that your identity is not a mere make-believe?
Are you sure that you are not living a life less than who you are called to live as?
Are you sure that you're not living a handicap life?
How sure are you?

Unless, unless you really know who you are. You will never be able to live as who you are meant to be.
Are you living in your identity?

Most of you would have learned identity matrix and such in school, they remain the same even after transformations. That having said, knowing your identity is a vital part of life, it's vital because life comes with all sorts of pressure, all sorts of challenges, all sorts of "transformations", but yet, if you know who you are, you'll be able to go through them without having you going against your stand, beliefs and core values.

See how important identity is? But the question remains, who are you? What is your identity? How are you being defined?

Since the 30th of May, approximately 10+ weeks now, I started doing my internship program in the University itself.. When i started, it felt nothing more than me just coming to campus, nothing more than a student life, with working hours in an office environment. Yes, i know that i'm now a MMU staff, i know that i am now not just a student, with that, i dressed proper, one fit for a University staff.

When you are able to identify yourself at where you are, you begin to live as you are meant to be.

Knowing your identity empowers you to live as you ought to

Slightly more than a year ago, my friend and i took up an offer to work as Research Assistants in the campus, we talked about making Staff ID and Staff Stickers, we talked about the benefits we would reap from doing that, yet something held us back, we didn't do it back then. This time, this time was however different! I was not satisfied with just identifying myself at where i am, i pressed in, i took an extra step, to finally get myself a Staff ID.

Making the Staff ID wasn't really easy for me, yes, i know it is my right as a fellow University Staff to make an ID, but yet, deep inside, i had a mix feeling that i'm still a student what, why do i even need the Staff ID? I have all the documents needed to make a Student Car Sticker, why do i want to go through the trouble? Do i want to go through the trouble?

Nevertheless, i gathered up my guts from all over the place, and walked the extra mile. Before you judge, you've got to know that i am naturally a person that hates paperwork, i hate going through the hassles of red tapes and what not, more than that, i was never really a bold person. Anyways, i proceeded to the ID making department and got the ID done within 30-45 minutes. Ahh, such an overwhelming relief came over me, thinking that all is good now.. but i forgot that my Car Sticker was still not done, so i went through all the hassle again.. now, back to our topic, identity.

More than just a sense of achievement, obtaining the Staff ID itself played a deeper role than just another ID with memento.

It redefined who i was. I walk around campus with a different identity now. I move about knowing my identity, knowing what i can do, and what i shouldn't do as a staff. A sense of boldness was upon me.

Similarly, in life, there's a deep longing in everyone to know what is life for, to know if there is more to life than this.. But this can only be answered, if you, if you found your identity, knowing it rightly, and living it out. Imagine for a second if Superman didn't know who he was, there would never be comics, animations or even movies about him. If you don't know your identity, something is missing!

Just the other day, i posted up on Facebook

"An amazing sight seeing people living in their identity!".

Seriously, it was absolutely AMAZING! Each one playing out their role, each fitting into a beautiful picture! I urge you to know who you are, and to know it rightly!

You may have some questions like "how then am i suppose to know who am i?", "who is going to tell me who am i?".. For that, i know a Perfect Person for that job, He is after all your creator, the Person who called you into being. Your identity can only be found in God. He created you, He knit you together in your mother's womb, and when He created you, you were made wonderful! (Psalms 139:13-14)

The devil is good at giving you identities which are make-believes, identities which are lower than what God has for you, identities that will handicap you, identities that will never allow you to live life as who you are meant to. Never give in to his suggestions, God has more, God has more! Never settle for less! That being said, you can always rest assured that His plans for you are good, His plans for you are never to harm you. (Jeremiah 29:11)

God has more! Never settle for less!

Just last night, i posted this on Facebook:

Sometimes i wish i was nearer to home. Nevertheless, i'll be faithful at where i am, afterall, i'm placed here for a purpose, placed here for a mission.
Pick up your identity today, until you're able to identify yourself at where you are, you'll never be able to live as who you are called to be.

and i went to bed after that.. While resting my head, I asked God to speak to me, and He did. A simple thought, Isaiah 53 came to me. So i picked up a Bible, the Living Word of God, and read up Isaiah 53.

As i was reading it, i felt like my status was speaking back to me through that chapter. Jesus, though He was far from Home, probably He would have wished to be closer to Home, nevertheless, He was faithful at where He was sent, after all, He was placed here for a purpose, for a mission!

I thank God, that because He identified Himself at where He was, He was able to live out His calling, without which, we would amount to nothing.

Such an amazing God isn't He? He's not a make-believe, He is real! So real that sometimes it freaks me out, but that's just so reassuring isn't it? :)

I'll end this post with a song to encourage you, an invitation to learn to live as how He meant you to, His arms are wide open, ready to show you how to live. God bless!

I heard the sound of your first breath
A brand new life on your mother’s chest
A beating heart, expectant eyes
On the first day of your life
I saw you take your first step
And I watched you run with no regret
To chase your dreams and find true love
And the best is yet to come

So come with Me
I’ll show you life
Even better than this
Come with Me
I’ll show you love
You didn’t know could exist
Better than your first crush
Better than your first kiss
I’ll show you how to live

Remember how you felt from across the room
When you realized someone had eyes for you
And the way your heart sang cuz you believed
You were worth something

So come with me
I’ll show you life
Even better than this
Come with me
I’ll show you love
You didn’t know could exist
Better than your first crush
Better than your first kiss
I’ll show you how to live
Oh, I’ll show you how to live

Cuz I created your heart
That makes you feel
I am the love that makes it real
Oh, I am the One, I’m the One, I’m the One
I am the One, I’m the One, I’m the One

So come with Me
I’ll show you life
Even better than this
Come with Me
I’ll show you love
You didn’t know could exist
Better than your first crush
Better than your first kiss
I’ll show you how to live

Cause I am the One, I’m the One, I’m the One
I am the one, I’m the One, I’m the One

Till i blog again

199: What is freedom?

2011-06-21T14:51:00.006+08:00

What is freedom?

I remember once where my brother was asking for the "key to freedom" for his upcoming 21st birthday.

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Mom: what key to freedom are you talking about? We have been giving you, all 3 of you the freedom way before you are 21.

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So again, the question, what is freedom?
Many people would identify freedom with a key, but why?
Is the key the freedom that many are searching for?

Even for myself, i had the same idea, thinking that the key is my freedom. While i was walking back from lunch to my workplace, the Lord spoke through an impression. He brought back the scene and asked me, what is freedom?

For a moment, i paused and pondered. Soon enough the answer was unveiled. Freedom is not the key.

A key, by itself, is useless.
A key, by itself, is nothing more than a piece of molded iron.
A key, by itself, without the knowledge of how to use it, is meaningless.
A key, by itself, without a lock sums up to nothing.
A key, by itself, can't bring freedom.

So what is freedom? Without the slightest of doubt, a key is needed in bringing one to freedom. But the key itself isn't freedom.

Freedom is when one knows that they are free-ed.

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Back to where i started, my parents gave all 3 of us siblings the liberty and the key way before we were 21. Here, the key meant nothing because we didn't know that we had been set free.

Isn't it somewhat sad, having us 'trapped' not knowing that there was no prison to begin with.

Similarly, in life, The KEY had come, The KEY paid the price.
The problem?

The problem is that many has yet to know that they have been liberated. Many have yet to know The KEY who loosed the chains, The KEY that took our place in redeeming sacrifice.

The KEY is none other than my beloved Father, beloved Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.

Don't get me wrong and conclude that i'm saying Jesus, by Himself is useless, a piece of molded iron and etc. I'm saying that if you have yet to receive Him as your personal Lord, you have yet to receive freedom.

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Dear friends and readers,

There's a difference in knowing about The KEY and knowing The KEY personally.
There's a difference in knowing about the freedom and living in the freedom.

Here's an invitation to receive The KEY and to live in freedom.

If you'd like to receive Jesus as your personal Lord and Saviour, to know Him personally and to live in this freedom that He is offering, come, let us pray.

Dear Lord Jesus,
I thank You for saving me while i have yet to know You.
I thank You for loving me first, I thank You for paying the price i could never pay.

Thank You for washing away my sins on the Cross.

Lord i open up my heart to You, here is my heart Lord. Come, come and live in me. Come and make me the person You want me to be.

In Jesus' Name, i pray,
Amen.

If you have prayed the prayer above,
Congratulations & welcome into this Family of God. All heaven is rejoicing over you. DO however leave a note, or send me a personal message through my email or any means that you are comfortable with. I'd be most glad to hear from you.

God bless and have a blessed week ahead!

In love,

Internship Week 3 Summary

2011-06-20T14:15:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps, i know i haven't been updating much lately, especially good posts like i used to do... i'll try to get back to that soon :)

Anyways here's what i learned throughout my last week here ..

It is ok to praise and tell me "well done" but it's not ok if you tell me i'm working too hard, even though it might be a fact, you can tell me to take some time off, but no, never tell me that i'm working too hard. Well my supervisor did, and now i'm slacking. big time. hahaha, but of course, comparatively to the other interns, i think i'm still doing more than them...

maybe, i'm not really slacking afterall... hah!

anyways, back to work, its working hour afterall :))

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EDIT:

its sad when you hear others talking about someone you know when they do not know that you know that person.

anyways this was what happened, and that person is someone i know, and i would say somewhat close.

i've always heard and knew that it is wrong to curse in God's name, it's not like i don't understand why i shouldn't or why it is wrong. But yet, i didn't really really understand how hurtful it is. Yes, of course i felt the pain when i hear people curse in God's name, but the pain was somewhat minimal. But after this experience, i'm able to understand it better, here's the beginning of so much more.

Till i blog again

Week 2 of Internship

2011-06-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

And so, week 2 of internship has come to an end, time passed faster than i expected, well maybe because i had lots of fun this week, of captain ball, ikan bakar and cyber cafe despite having internship, i guess that's something not many interns can afford, especially with my fellow university friends.

Honestly i have nothing much to update, but i can only thank God for a smooth week, though faced with lots of programming problems, God still gave me ideas to solved them :D

Thank God i'm on schedule, at least, my own schedule, but maybe i'm taking things too fast .. lol

I'll prolly finish my supposed internship work soon if i continue at my pace, though its a good thing, but i'm sure my boss would hand me some other heavier stuff on me after this, so i'll prolly take things a lil slower summore... haha

life has been good, though a lil tiring as i have to juggle between work and CF related issues, but its all in good hands for He is with me. Being connected to Him daily really feels good, especially when you're not doing it alone.

and so, this morning i was reading the book of Acts, chapter 9..

Acts 9:40
Peter sent them all out of the room; then he got down to his knees and prayed. Turning toward the dead woman, he said "Tabitha, get up." She opened her eyes, and seeing Peter she sat up.

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Background: Peter was in a "foreign" place, and there, some people came to him and asked him to come over immediately to their place where Tabitha was.

Why did he send "them" all out of the room? Probably because Peter needed to listen from God and probably because he sensed that they have little faith.

What amazes me is at how much Peter cared for a stranger. Why?

Looking at my own life, when do i really get down to my knees and pray? I guess only in desperate times, times where nothing else seems to be able to help, times where i ONLY have Jesus.

Are we willing to love others like how Peter and Jesus did? Do we really care? Our fellow campus students and staffs. Our coursemates? Do we care?

I believe that if it matters to us, it matters to Him, and when we pray, He'll answer us. And that's what fervent prayer is about.

May the Lord continue to speak to all of us even through this verse.
God bless! Have an awesome day ahead :)

Anyways, time to head home .. an awesome weekend lies ahead :)

Till i blog again

Week 1 of Internship

2011-06-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hi there readers! How are you peeps doing? i hope yall are in good shape and good health!

Anyways, so... week 1 of my internship has finally come to an end, yes i know its only week 1.. but seriously with all my heart, believe me, being student is so much much much more awesome!

Being an intern in the campus itself has its good and bad. i think.
Well for my case, i'd say it's very very different, mainly because i'm following up on what i did earlier this year when i took up a job opportunity in campus as a part time research assistant.

Following up on a programming based work is definitely not fun. it's never fun to dig up something you consider done and doing it all over again... (not exactly doing it all over, but to just dig it up and do it, is quite a pain in the ass IMHO)

And so, this week, i spent most of my days programming... and i feel very lifeless after that... though yes i love programming, but doing that for 8 hours a day is really tiring, boring and very brain consuming! I can feel the heat coming out of my brain everyday, and as soon as i get back from work, i'll crash into my bed, and wake up wondering why i slept earlier.. cuz i would have problems sleeping in the night! =_=

Nevertheless, here comes the awesome part of doing internship in your campus (and having stay near your campus) ... you don't really have to sleep early, you don't really have to wake up early (though i still wake up at 7am every morning while work only starts at 8.30am)

through this short working experience, i've gain even more respect to my parents as they are able to sleep late (1-2am) and yet still wake up at 6-7am! maybe it's because we children don't help around at home, maybe it's because we are the ones who keep them up awake.

working really does drain you out.. having to stay awake the whole day without much time to break... it's really not a nice experience. nonetheless, even for the rest of my internship (15 more weeks) i pray that i'll continue to depend on His strength for me!

work load has been quite bad, maybe it's because i was previously working on the same project, hence, my superiors place a higher expectation on me. and yes, that sucks.. especially when you think you don't have what it takes to fulfill their expectations.

there were quite some hook ups along this week, be it in shifting my stuff (yet to really shift in to my new unit) though i have been staying here for a week+ now.. still.. quite messy as i didnt have the time to unbox and clear up everything..

i guess that's enough of complain eh? good news coming up next!

what's the good news?
I got 4.0 last trimester! WOOOOOTS~
Praise God, even with my busyness in my involvement in CF, in campus, studies and all those, i still manage to do well... even with bad exam timetable (back to back, 2 papers in 2 days) ... Thank God for strength and wisdom in all things..

Bucket list:
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get 4.0 at least once before i graduate [ checked ]
...

anyways, time to sleep.. i need them. gnite peeps!

Photo credits to Philip, my new room mate

Till i blog again

Post 195: Getting things right.

2011-05-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we tend to misplace things and even truths at the wrong place. Often, calibration is needed.

Do not confuse Light and bright.
Light, is the source;
bright, is the symptoms of being exposed to the Light.

Quick updates:
Internship is in a day's time... prepared? not at all actually..
i've yet to revise all the programming languages needed, i've yet to go through all my past works to understand and review what i did, even more for the things that i need to do.

I do not know what to expect for this coming Monday. Walking around campus for the next 16 weeks in formal attire would be one heck of an experience. Flashy, yes, but at the price of being odd, uncomfortable, and out of place; or at least, for now.

As of holidays, i pretty much did most of the things i wanted to, didn't really do the things i needed to... but yea.. i suppose it happens.. right?

Of gaming, ipoh trip, rock climbing, shopping, moving house, Joint Camp, archery, and movie.. yes it was fun and tiring at the same time..

as of archery, it has been more than a year now since i last shot my last arrow, but i still had fun in Sunway yesterday... simply because the bowling alley was packed (some tournament was going on)

The one on the left is mine

Pretty much still quite accurate, i think. yes it was fun.
Holidays are gone. Next up: Internship!

Wishing everyone who would be undergoing their internship a pleasant and awesome 4 months! I'll see you all again very soon!

And not forgetting all those who are leaving, i would like to thank you once again, for being a part of my life, for being who you are, for impacting me (for the better or for the worst) ... it was definitely a pleasure to meet you all... i wish you all the best in life, do keep in contact, i would surely want to meet up with you again!

God bless & good night!

Till i blog again

1113 | Quickie

2011-05-19T23:13:00.001+08:00

Hey there again peeps.. just another quick update for my blog,

yes i am aware that it's been a while since i posted up anything, so here's something new...

In Your Likeness
Colin Battersby, From the album: “Huge” Youth Alive Western Australia

D A/D G2
Jesus I need You
Asus A
You are my light
D A/D
Jesus I want You
E7add4 G2
To shine, to shine

Chorus:
D A/D
In Your likeness, change
G2
In Your likeness
A
Change my heart

Bridge:
G2 D
I want You to take me
Asus Bm7
Lord come and break me
G2 D
I want You to shape me
Asus A
As You are

Sorry for all the mistakes in between, didn't intend to upload it at first :))
and beside, this is the first time im uploading a cover with my face in it... lol

cuz im too lazy to edit..

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anyways, quick updates...
packing up my stuff wasn't as easy as i thought... not that i thought it was easy in the first place.. the word lazy sums it up i guess...

holidays? i've been gaming quite a bit, more than i ever did throughout the entire previous sem... and i think i should stop, before i get over-addicted, again. but yea, it's always fun to keep pwning people in games... that is, unless i get pwned myself...

my bio-clock is currently haywire ... late nights and early mornings, for no apparent reasons.. but yea, holidays rite? lol

ok, err... im out of words.. so ..

Till i blog again

Quick updates...

2011-05-05T08:14:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps! Sorry for my awayness, life has been really busy, hectic would be the right word.

anyway, just some quick updates... finals is around the corner, practically knocking at my door step... Next Monday & Tuesday!

Preparations? Almost nonexistence. Yes, i did study a lil here and there, but i've been traveling around lately to get some paper work done, and oh how tiring it is..

Nevertheless, i thank God that most of the other things that i was assigned to do/was supposed to do is done, and done well.

Internship placement? Did i not update you all yet? hmm.. anyways, i've got my internship stuff more or less settled. I'll be working in the university itself under the Research Management Centre (RMC) where i previously worked part time... so yes, i'm a MMU staff.

I wonder if i would finally apply for a staff sticker this time... haha, the last time my friend and i worked part time, we had all sorts of idea about getting staff ID, getting staff parking sticker and all these sort of stuff.. well the cool thing is, i wanted to work in Cyberjaya as i had other commitments here.. and everything went well, so praise Jesus again! woooo~

Things that needs to be done real quick? Get my accommodation stuff done real quick, settle some management stuff, plan some stuff, email lots of people, and the list goes on... haha :)

Finally, just for the heck of it, happy 05/05/11!
i woke up at 05:05:11 just to take a screenshot from my phone... lol.. but too bad, it didn't show the "seconds" information on the screenshot..

05:05:11 @ 05/05/11

Till i blog again

MengenalMu - GMB (Acoustic Cover)

2011-04-21T10:36:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps, just a simple update:

Life's been great, though many uncertainties surrounds me, i know of Someone who remains constant till the end. The Rock on which i stand, the Savior of my soul, the Love of my life.

and hence, the song below is dedicated to Him:

MengenalMu
Sidney Mohede
Key: A
Intro: A E A E A E/A D Bila ku buka mataku dan lihat wajah-Mu F#m E ku terkagum A E D bila ku lihat hidupku dan Karya tangan-Mu F#m E ku tersanjung DM7 E/D C#m kar`na semua yang baik dalam hidupku F#m itulah karya-Mu Bm7 E Kau b`ri kesempatan yang baru Reff: A DM7 dan ku ingin mengenal-Mu Tuhan Bm E A D E lebih dalam dari s`mua yang ku kenal A DM7 tiada kasih yang melebihi-Mu Bm E A ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah-Mu

Till i blog again

A day in words

2011-04-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

Summary of 17 April 2011:

slept in church on saturday night

woke up at 5.30am, took my shower around 6am

final preparation for sermon @ 6.20am++

group devotion at almost 7am

breakfast at 8am

9.00am++ church start, worship, testimony, holy communion, sermon in another language i seldom use... service one ended around 10.30am

packed up & travel to another place
the driving was an interesting yet painful experience... driving skill +5

service 2 at around 11.40am (worship, testimony, holy communion, sermon)

lunch at dunno what time with err.. a lot of people in a hall... haha

travel back to where we came from @ 3.30pm

ABC & Cendol + rest

travel again ... drive drive drive drive

reached home with a bunch of friends @ 7.40pm

whitey ran out! - chase him around the garden (while i left my friends at my place)... tired.. came back, saw him coming in! Opportunity! - failed, hence injured my leg

set up trap!

wait for it, wait for it, wait for it~~

Gotcha! Caught whitey! dog trapping exp +5

8pm++ parents came back .. cooked dinner for my friends and i

ate dinner + laughed at all that happened..

9.00pm++ prepare to leave, changed car etc etc etc ... left around 9.30pm

reached cyber at 10.30pm+

tidy up some stuff, send people back..

11.00pm ... go friends place to take assignment stuffs..

11.20pm ... mandi

11.30pm onwards till now, 12.42am... FB and blogging...

and so... gnite worlds... im very very very very very very exhausted.

the trip was awesome nonetheless! thank you peeps! and i bless you!
:D

Till i blog again

To do list:

2011-04-02T09:14:00.001+08:00

well, holidays are here! at least, that's what they say...

1 week of holiday, plans? plenty!

1) Finish up my lab report (which i'm currently stuck with, waiting for lecturer's reply)
2) Start doing my assignments, be it research or doing it
3) Fix my N900; which is still working fine, the only problem is that i forgot my lock code @_@
4) In conjunction with (3), i'm gonna make it dual-boot. Maemo & Andriod ;)) [ or at least try ]
5) Get my internship placement .. now it's a lil worrying, 19 more days, Lord, i still believe.
6) Study for my midterm, which is right after this one week break, [ Monday, 9am ]
7) Read, read, read.
8) Soak in His loving embrace
9) Ice Skating, for the first time... weee~

as of now, these are the items in my to do list..

updates about life?
- Trust. Holding on. Embrace. Have the mind of Christ.

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Something i posted on MMUCS wall the other day:

Have you ever wondered, if your prayer is too small? or if the things you care about matters to God?

Well, the good news is, He cares.

I used to think that maybe God wouldn't answer certain kind of prayers, or to be precise, He has other more important things to care about.. it's like comparing a lil flu you're having with an earthquake that is happening somewhere else.

With that sort of thinking, i limited God to my own experience and to my own way of thinking.
Limiting God, an insult to Him? Anyways, this afternoon, while having lunch, we experienced God's care in a rather unique way.

so here goes:
(this would make more sense to people who played pokemon before, nonetheless, i guess there's no harm reading haha)

Stephen, a pokemon trainer, after taking his lunch, continued trying to catch "Lugia", a legendary pokemon which he tried since the night before but nothing seem to work, be it spamming of Ultra Ball, a type of pokeball or even spamming the buttons while trying to catch it.

As a legendary pokemon, one would expect that it would be harder to catch it; and that was the case. Like any other pokemon trainers, most would have contemplated to give up, or even use the Master Ball.

I don't know if i was joking, but i think i wasn't, anyway, i asked Stephen to pray la... and so he prayed, "Lord, i commit this Ultra Ball into Your hands. Amen"

and yes, Lugia was caught with that same Ultra Ball.

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So, what am i trying to bring out from this story? - God cares. even with things that seemingly seems irrelevant, unimportant, and useless.

What does God really care about? He cares about you. Yes, you.
He cares about your feeling, about your well being, your desires. He even cares for us more than we do. He numbers our hair, while we couldn't even care less, that is until balding starts.

Little little areas of our lifes, be it a mosquito bite, a dead gold fish, heck, even a pokemon, in a game that is hard to catch. He cares.

Are there areas in our lifes that we've not submitted to Him? Thinking that it's too small, thinking that it's okay to handle it by yourself? There's nothing wrong in trying to handle it yourself, though, it might not be the smartest of choice.

To wrap it up, i'd like to say again, God cares. He really does, sometimes, even more that we do. cast all your cares to Him, if you're tired and weary, lay it all down, take up His burden, for its light and easy.

1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

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:)
Be blessed, be a blessing, and have a great week ahead! ;)

Till i blog again

Post 189: Cover

2011-03-26T19:46:00.004+08:00

Hi peeps, sorry once again for the lack of updates, so this time, i'm trying something new, here's a cover of "At the foot of the cross" i played and sang.

Agape ♥ sent straight from heaven to my heart
the Love that saved my soul. Thank You Jesus

as always,
Sorry for any mistakes and even the lack of lyrics in the video, just a lil too much of a hassle to put in the lyrics haha.. do pardon the background noise as well, cuz i was just testing out

:)

Lyrics and Chords can be found HERE

note:
i played with capo at 4, intro chord C

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To wrap it up,

come, all you who are weary and thirsty, come, drink from this fountain, and you'll never thirst again, come to the cross, where we're made complete. He's arms are wide open, He's prepared to run to you when you take the first step, don't be afraid, He is love. Love never fails.

Have a blessed week ahead! God bless!

Till i blog again

Post 187: Not so regular updates

2011-03-12T11:11:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps,
its been a while since i last blogged, life has been busy. i think.

Well to start of, i'd first like to thank God for my results, though i would have wanted to score higher, but well, i guess the results i got ain't that bad, considering the fact that i was extremely busy, even till the last week of study, heck i even skipped CNY and stayed home.

So, for my previous trimester, i got GPA 3.33 :)
having to juggle between 6 engineering subjects with a total amount of 54 chapters. i think i did well. but yes, thank You Lord for sustaining me throughout the entire 1 months+ of hecticness!

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asides from academic related stuff. i prolly haven't update you peeps about my health condition. Praise God again, on the 21st of Feb, i was given a "DISCHARGE" note. which, also means, i'm free from TB, everything is well! awesomeness!

few days back, CFMMU decided to have a Captain Ball game. it was awesome alright! God knows how long since i last played, that wild. haha... injuries? haha, just some slight scratches and cuts, asides from the muscle ache and stuff [ which probably came from the mopping of the court instead of the game itself haha ]

oh yea, i remember one afternoon, prolly Thursday noon, even as i was FB-ing, i saw a friend posting testimonies about healing, and i was like .. hey, i dont wanna be left out in Cyberjaya, so i prayed, and the pain in the back, left.

how awesome is that? God is certainly moving, and He's coming quick. Don't miss out of that peeps, miracles and healings are supposed to be norm in a christian's life.. desire it, practice it. know that it's not you healing the sick, you're just simply laying hands by faith, and letting His power flow through you.

now that's pure awesomeness!

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The new trimester just started, and first week is now history. time flies. sometimes, a lil too fast for me to realize that it's gone. nevertheless, i praise God for He is always in control. anyways, for this trimester, CF just started a new ministry called "P.U.S.H" which is the acronym for "Pray Until Something Happens". Though we have not fully developed it into a praying ministry, more of a discipleship program kindda thing for a start, i would say that it's awesome! and for those of you who wants to know more about Christianity and its beliefs and such, be sure to drop by! I'm sure you'll be blessed as i have.

For this trimester, i decided to take a back seat (sorta thing; not exactly since most FOE students in my year is doing that too) in my studies, which is to take up only 2 subjects for this short trimester instead of 3 which i normally do. well, i guess it's alright to take a short 7 weeks more-relaxed trimester once in a while...

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Internship. honestly, i've yet to send out any application. whereas most of my closer friends has already submitted their "acceptance letter" haha..

worried? well yea, i guess a lil ..
doing anything about it? frankly, no. as i've have a list of more urgent things to do.. some of my friends asked and when i answered them that, they had a weird look on their faces.. haha, it's not that im not worried that i can't find a placement, but i know that my God is a provider, He will certainly provide me, even as i place Him first above all else.

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life. and all the other issues that comes along with it

life has been complicated. yes even in the area of relationship.
you'd prolly be thinking... "eh clarence is in a relationship edi meh?"
haha... err, the exact answer would be no. but yes, its messy, complicated and the like.

things are probably not as complicated as i think (well, me being someone who thinks a lot, actually mentally drew out a mind map, weighed the consequences, pros and cons, and thought about lots and lots of other things.... haha.. yea..)

if some of you has the thought like ... "wah even a person like clarence can't get a gf... i have no hope d.."

LOL... if thats really the case, please la.. give yourself some credit.

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happenings in the world. of tsunamis, earthquakes, volcano eruption, political change, and all the other "hu ha" issues.

i would say, continue to fix your eyes upon God. God is in control, He has won the victory, earthly disaster happens not because God is angry. It happens simply because this earth is curse. the earth is deteriorating.

sometimes i wonder how selfish i can get. it's really not easy to keep looking out for people's need and keeping your own "happiness, joy and ambition" at bay. the world is full of needs, people NEED the Lord.

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory
- Fire fall down, Hillsong

Lord, that's my prayer. Show me Your face, gird up my legs. the road ahead ain't gonna be easy, but Lord, its my desire to please You, to follow Your ways, to see lives around me change to the better, because of You in my life. my hands and my feet, they are Yours. lead me.

Repost:

Life is fragile; as some may say.
Life is short; others might say.
I beg to differ.
Half truth ain't truth.

Life is more than what your eyes can see.
Life on earth may be short, but life ain't fragile.
Life doesn't end here.
Life is eternal.

It doesn't matter if you believe or not,
Life remains eternal.
The ONLY thing that matters to God's heart,
Is where you'd be when it all ends.

Choose you this day, where you'd wanna be?
Cuz it'll be for eternity.
I'm not scaring you.
I'm just sharing truths.

So what's fragile?
Your heart is.
Its thinner than paper,
Breaks easier than glasses.

Yet, it can be firm as a mountain,
Holding on to what seems to be true;
That is, at least to you.
It's a part of you that makes you, you.

So be strong, and hold on to what is true
Circumstances may say otherwise,
But it doesn't even matter.
He's always there for you.

No matter what comes your way,
Know that He wants to be in all that you do.
He's crazy over you, He even died for you.
He came, to give you life, and life abundantly.

Ask! That's what you'd need to do.
He's waiting, waiting for you.
He's a gentleman, He doesn't budge in,
Unless you invite Him.

Lastly, remember, He loves you.
In fact, He is LOVE himself.
Life means so much more when He's here.
Life is worth living because He lives.

- Clarence

Till i blog again

♫ Negaraku~

2011-02-20T17:19:00.001+08:00

Hey there peeps!
I bet you missed me XD

Anyways,

Before i start, i would first like to thank my Lord and Saviour for sustaining me, in my health, in my mental state, in my emotions, and in my everyday. Without Him, i would have probably break down due to the immense stress and would be sulking somewhere in some corner of Cyberjaya.

The 5 weeks of awesome hecticness has finally slowed down, staying up late, rushing my assignments and studying has been my everyday life for more than a month now. This sense of freedom, hence the title, Negaraku. The National Anthem of Malaysia, which symbolizes freedom and independence.

Late nights, early mornings, and whole day long, toiling and toiling and toiling.
It's wasn't exactly toiling, cuz i had fun while doing the things i was assigned to. Here i would like to thank Stephen, Philip, Deric, Alvin, Victor, Galen, Amelia, Mei Theng, Vivian, Jia Ling, Rui Min, and all others who was part of this hectic season. You peeps made it less stressful and more enjoyable. I hope i was part of the positive aura. haha!

And so, i've ended my second trimester of my Delta year (3rd year). One last trimester this year, and i'm left with 1 year as a student, provided i do well in all my subjects and i decide not to take up any old subjects just to improve my grads, OR continue doing my masters, which i doubt.

I'm prolly not ready to graduate just yet, still having loads of fun as a student
:D

Asides from the academic related stress, emotions has also been playing around with me too. It's never fun having to juggle between 2 major parts of your life at one go, nevertheless, His love is ever faithful, always there to console me when i needed it. Having awesome time to just play the guitar or playing counter strike in the middle of the night sure does help :)

This trimester was probably one of my crazies trimester throughout my entire life as a student, really. It was awesome nonetheless!

Anyways, my trimester break is finally here XD ... i got myself a 500GB external hard disk to pamper myself, and to perform backup before i (finally) format my lappy which i wanted to, for a long time now haha..

(Samsung S2 EXT HDD 500GB)

Plans for this short 1 to 2 weeks break?
1) Archery (if i can borrow some bows)
2) Bowling
3) Format my lappy
4) test of Quake 2 on my N900.. XD
5) pick up my camera and go shooting once again
6) redesign my blog skin, i hope, if inspiration strikes
7) rest. probably one of the most important one. haha

What results do i expect when i get back from my breaks?
As good as i can get, obviously, but i do expect at least 3A, if not A+(s).
and for the rest, B if possible, otherwise, i would be more than glad to just pass them. cuz they're really tough :)

Honestly, i can't think of anything more to write now ..
so, to end this post, i'd like to post up the beauty that bid me farewell on Saturday evening, just before i left Cyberjaya for home.

Till i blog again

Dear you, please read this.

2011-02-14T00:11:00.001+08:00

Yes i know i posted it before, but i feel the urge to post it up again.
In conjunction with Feb 14,

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. ( 1 Cor 13 )

and for all you broken hearted young man,
[ ladies, you may go to sleep now ]

Continue to pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. Even as God prepares you to be the man He wants you to be ( 1 Tim 6:11 )

I know what it feels to be broken hearted. i went through it enough times to tell you that, i know for sure, that God is still preparing us, for greater things ahead. He knows what you like, what you don't like. He knows, He knows.

Believe me when i say that He loves you so much, that He wants the best for you, and nothing less.

Be blessed. Be of good cheer.

- Signed, Clarence.

Till i blog again

:)

2011-02-12T00:09:00.001+08:00

Yes, i have been ever so busy, my mind is prolly gonna shut down any minute now, but ive yet to bathe... anyways, this week has been a very very very very very .. that's 5 very(s) for each day...

anyways, one precious value i learn today is that ...

i am amazing!
i am God's greatest creation
He loves me to death!

i rock!
...i was born to do greater works than Jesus!
i was born for glory!
Nations are attracted to me
cuz i'm so good looking!
and i have the mind of christ
therefore i think like God
He's my inheritance
and im His inheritance
and He actually likes me
and i like me too

and if you gotta know me
you would like me
creation knows who i am
the devils knows who i am
God knows who i am
and the angels, they know who i am
and today, i know who i am!

i suggest you go to the youtube link instead.. :)

Things i wanna note down:
1) I think your character in the midst of exam that counts
2) 11022011 has been a great day. a really great one.
3) Welcome baby Jayden! Ahh... cuteness!
4) :)

err.. brain died.. err so, gnites :D .. im having paper in the morning hahah

Till i blog again

Misconception #101

2011-01-25T00:54:00.003+08:00

Christians.

What do you think of them? I use to hear from friends that it's hard to be Christians, cuz their lifestyle is really different, they cannot smoke, cannot go clubbing, cannot drink, cannot lie, cannot do this, cannot do that...

But that ain't true at all.

Somehow or another, people has placed a higher standard for Christians. It's like when a Christian does something that seems wrong, they would say like: Eh.. Christians can do that one meh?

Don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining or anything. But that's just what i've been observing la..

Righteous living, what do you understand about it?
As defined by Wikipedia

righteousness - The quality or state of being righteous; holiness; purity; uprightness; rectitude. Righteousness, as used in Scripture and theology, in which it chiefly occurs, is nearly equivalent to holiness, comprehending holy principles and affections of heart, and conformity of life to the divine law;

Wait, can anyone really live up to that level of commitment? To really really really stay holy, stay pure, stay upright? It's really impossible if you ask me, i don't know why, but people seem to have a different viewpoint of who i am, thinking that i can't fail, which is of course not true.

Everyone can have a certain degree of self righteousness, to a certain extend, everyone is able to do right, to make sure he/she doesn't say or do anything that is against the law, but God has a higher expectation of us, and it's really impossible to do, in the Bible, it is said that even a thought of hatred against another person is as bad as committing murder. (Matt 5:21)

So, tell me, is it possible for us to really commit ourselves to such a level of holiness and righteousness?

Here i am to enlighten you!
Let me first bring you back to the beauty of language! Long time ago, when i was still in my primary school, i remember hating taking Chinese language, one of the reasons why i hated it is because i couldn't appreciate it's beauty, and i come from a family that speaks English at home. It somehow felt like you're sending an Englishman to Chinese school (which of course, isn't wrong, but yea, i doubt the Englishman would like it (unless under his own freewill)..

Anyways, after years of using it and understanding more and more about the language, i start to appreciate more of it... now, back to the topic, misconception?

義

This is the traditional Chinese character for 'Righteousness'. It's made out of 2 "smaller" characters, which is firstly the character "羊 (lamb/sheep)" and at the bottom of it is the character "我 (me)".

So what does these two character means when it adds up? It means righteousness, but how does it relate?

The Chinese language is quite a old language if you ask me, so back in those days, in the old testament(in the bible), people use to sacrifice lamb as a sacrifice for their sins, they "transferred" their sins to the lamb. When they transfer over their sins to the lamb, they are considered righteous, so instead of having themselves killed, they kill the lamb.

This practice can also still be seen in our Malaysian culture on the day where the Muslims perform "Korban" that normally involves a cow.

Now, to make it all the more interesting, in the bible, Jesus is also called the "Lamb of God". Now, does it bring a better picture to you?

In the New Testament, i think most of you would know of a Person known as Jesus. Well, He was also known as the Lamb of God, and if you've watch the movie "Passion of Christ", you would have seen Him being accused, beaten up and finally hung on the cross! So how does the story link up again?

Similarly, Jesus, as a sinless-God-Man, took upon all, all our sins, past, present, and even future upon the cross, so, instead that we die, He died for our sake.
Better still, He didn't just die, but on the 3rd day, early in the morning, He rose up in victory. Death could not hold Him down. The Lamb above me eh? His Name is none other than Jesus!

And because of that He is my righteousness! It's all about Him, nothing about me. Along with that, i like this part the most! In Romans 5:17 it says:

For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God’s abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ!

Gift! Gift! Gift!
Malaysian are especially good at this! Mentioning free gifts brings people together!
Like i mentioned, being righteous is really really nothing to do with us as Christians, it's all about Jesus. Even though it says GIFT, but it doesn't mean it didn't cost anything. It might not have cost us anything, but it cost God everything! He gave His only Son for us all, and in that i'm truly truly grateful!

Talking about gifts, you can't earn them can you? You can only receive them!
So people, get this right, stop trying to earn righteousness, it's a gift, receive it.

So once again, to wrap it all up again, i'd love to stress that it's His love that has transformed me, it's not because Christians are people who can really keep the law, but it's because of the Lamb that is placed above of me!

More interesting Chinese words here: http://www.yutopian.com/religion/words/

Till i blog again

Like the moon.

2011-01-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

Star gazing, moon gazing, sun gazing. Astronomy.

I wonder how many of you enjoy it. I for one, enjoy these because these objects are amazing, they have probably seen it all, from the beginning of mankind till now.

Stars reminds me how God's faithfulness towards Abraham, even at the old age, even in situations where hope seems to be frail, even then, God could still do great and mighty things.

Stars reminds me that God knows me. If God knows each and every star in the universe, He even knows them by name. God is still in control over each of every one of them, He places them in their spots, sets them on their path. As seemingly as useless they are, if God would know them that well, how much more would He know me, how much more would He wanna make Himself known to me.

The moon reminds me of who i am. I guess most of you readers would know a lil science, or at least i hope you do, anyways, as most would know, the moon, by itself, doesn't shine. It's like another useless object going round and round in the universe in it's orbit, and prolly the only use of it (without the Sun) is to "control" the movement of the waves in the ocean with it's gravity. But that's another story.

It reminds me of who i am because, without the Son (pun intended, sun), i'm like a useless object, wandering around my 'orbit', doing the things that every other person can do
(naturally, without any help, ie: Moon -> no Sunlight -> no reflection).

Sometimes, i feel like the sun. Trying to chase away everyone's blue. I remember hearing a song sung by Salvador titled "Trying to be the Sun"

You can't walk into a room without
Feeling obligated to be the life of the party again
You can't stand to look around and see anybody with a frown
So you turn on the same old song and dance

Even if you're at the end of your road
You can't let anybody know
Cause you're too busy being everybody's everything

Chorus
So have fun trying to be the sun
Chasing everybody's blues away
Good luck trying to keep it up It would never be enough and your days are never done
When you're trying to be the sun

I know that you're meaning well
But it's not hard for me to tell
That you don't have the same joy inside
I know without a doubt that you're close to burning out
But you can't even let yourself give in

Yeah I know that you're at the end of your road
But you can't let anybody know
Cause you're too busy being everybody's everything

You'll never see who you are
When you're trying to be who you're not

Often in my life, i feel obligated to be the sun. But hey! Let the Son be the sun man.. It's alright to help people, it's alright to cheer people up, but face the fact, it's impossible to be the sun. You have your limits, you can try to shine as bright as you can, but as a moon, without the Sunlight, all the efforts, all the time you put in, amounts to nothing.

I'm not writing this to pull you down, i'm not trying to say hey, give up on being awesome cuz its impossible..

I'm writing this to remind firstly, myself, that you need the Son (pun intended again). Without the sunlight, the moon can hardly reflect the slightest sight of light.

And hey, you know what? When the Sun is shinning at it's peak, no one sees the moon; that's as much as the moon can do isn't it? To reflect light. I'm just reminding myself that it's not what i can do, it's what the Lord has done in my life. If i would have to rate myself out of 10, without God, it'd prolly be a negative number.

Like the moon huh? Lord, as imperfect as i may be, as ugly as i think i look like, You love me still. You still choose to use me to shine, still choose to make me a better person day by day, still choose to carry me through my darkest night.

I thank You that it is Your love that has transformed me, to make me the person i am today. Continue to lead me, by myself, i know i'd suck so badly. But with You, i can face a multitude of enemies, knowing that You'd not leave me, not forsake me, but continue to lead me still.

Even in this phase of life, come again, and be the Lord of all i am.

I can't do this alone, i need You to hold on to me. - Saviour Please, Josh Wilson

Till i blog again

Post 181: Matchstick

2011-01-08T00:56:00.003+08:00

[ unintentionally: it's the 8th of Jan, and post number 181.. just some numbers that looks alike, at least, to me ]

Matchsticks.

I wonder how many of you played with it before, i guess, almost all of you played with it before haven't you?

I remember as i kid, my brother and i use to light up matchsticks again and again, just for the fun of it, just to see it burn, then quickly put it off before the fire reaches either of our hand. It's not always a success when we're trying to light it up, but we still tried anyway...

I also recall that my mom would be scolding the both of us at the end of the day for playing fire in the house, making the room smell and lecture us about the danger of playing fire in the house..

Those were the days eh? I kindda miss them, now that i'm looking back at them and realizing im friggin 23 years old this year. Oh yes time passes real quick, but in times of difficulty, time feels like it's either going very very slow, or too quick for us to catch up.

Anyways, back to the topic, Matchstick..

I think, that's the phase of life i'm facing now. You may now go.. "wert?"... cuz yea, i know it doesn't make sense to you, yet.

So what's with the matchstick eh?

Let me just post you this question: "Do you still light up matchsticks just for fun? Or just because you're able to?"

And yea, so this is the question that im facing in life now. It feels like i'm having a box of matchsticks. Each having the potential to burn, each with the potential to be something amazing! (well, fire is amazing what .. rite?)

[ i'm equating a matchstick to an opportunity ]

Do i wanna light up the matchsticks and just watch it burn till the end of the stick? That is kindda short lived isn't it? No, i determine to see it burn longer.

Do i have what it takes to keep the fire burning? Do i have the substance/fuel to keep it burning?

Every matchstick counts, every single one of them. Every one of them are precious in itself. I suppose it sure sucks to see them burn and amount to nothing at the end huh?

So .. the question remains:
1) Should i light up a matchstick just because i know it will burn?
2) Do i have what it takes to keep it burning?

Do i wanna light it up? Yea, i guess, there's a part of me that want's to feel the excitement of it burning and watch this amazing light show. Yet, i'm taken aback, maybe because there are uncertainties...

Maybe i'm just trying to be cautious, trying not put a matchstick to waste.
Maybe i'm just scared that the matchstick doesn't light up.
Maybe i'm just worried the fire gets out of control.
Maybe, i'm thinking too much.

Well, it's part of life isn't it?

Solution?
Lord, here's my desire to burn this particular matchstick, to watch it burn, to see something amazing come out from it. I'm not sure whether or not to burn it, cuz seeing it burn is an excitement in itself, but seeing it fail to burn is like a disaster in itself. Lord teach me Lord. I'm really just like a child, wanting to play with fire. Even as i surrender this area more and more to You, lead me Lord in other areas in my life that needs changes, even for my mind, if burning this matchstick is not in accordance to You will, then let it be so, change my way of thinking, shift this paradigm i'm in.

Lead me, change me, be with me. All this i ask, and pray in the Jesus' Name. The loveliest name i've ever known, and ever will. The awesomeness even resonates in the Name itself.

Amen.

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On a random note::
A short update:

Praise the Lord, i've obtained Band 5 for MUET.
Life has been busy, and still is, hence, the lack of updates and even the design hasn't changed just quite yet..

But God has been faithful, has been awesome, has been lovely.

Anyways, i'm off to bed. I'm really tired to my marrows (if that is even possible).
Nites peeps, rest early, rest well, and be blessed!

God bless!

Till i blog again

My 2010 in short

2011-01-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

2 years ago, on the 30th of December 2009. I remember posting the following post and promised to repost it, to see what i've accomplished by proclaiming it by faith even before year 2010 started!

So here it is, enjoy:

----- 30/12/2009 -----

So 2010 is almost history now. One more day till 2011... i'm so excited! So many awesome stuffs happened this year.. i can barely recall all, but here's a list of things that happened and i think they're worthy to be listed down here...

1) I went to UK + Europe!

2) I finished my TB medications!

3) God filled the hole in my right lung!(same post as the previous one)

4) Obtained flying colors! - 3A, 1B, 1C [ the best in MMU so far ]

5) Made new friends!

6) I've gone into the deep and uncovered revelations that never grow old!
Example:

Step 1: place your hand on ur neck (near the adam's apple, if you have one)
Step 2: say 'zzzzz' and 'sssss'
Step 3: compare the difference.

conclusion: 'zzzzz' produces vibration, 'sssss' doesn't. 'zzzzz' is called voiced speech. 'sssss' is called unvoiced speech.
tiredness is not an excuse to not excel.
tiredness is an opportunity for God's grace to flow through me.
so tiredness, i speak to you now, take on your purpose in glorifying Him.
type your name : Clarence cheong weihan
Type your name with your eyes closed : clarence cheong weihan
Type your name with your elbows : cx l;aEDEWMJNVC ER XNHBWSOLPM NHG WERIUYHAnh
Type your name with your nose : doq43dhfc43bcdhgeong weihan
Type your name with your knuckles : ccplazdee2jnxcde mx jhedopkk nfg, mseojha n
Questions:
1) Do you feel useless?
2) Are you under a lot of stress?

Just like you, carbon is rather useless... and yes, it's under a lot of stress(pressure) .. and carbon under immense pressure is diamond... so yea, good news for you, you're in the process of becoming something of more worth!

[self motivation #1]

and many more.. just cant find them haha

7) Finished reading another book! - actually i failed doing this ... heh..

8) Had more than enough to share! - checked!

9) Played crazy games! - checked! [ skytrex, prolly more than 40 games of bowling last year (lol), rock climbing, and a few more, can't really recall ]

10) Had more than enough to share! - in progress :D

There's just so much things that i want to thank God for, for the year 2010. It has truly been a wonderful, exciting, and awesome journey. No doubts, there were also times of trouble, times of doubt, times of giving up. Nonetheless, God, You have again and again proven Yourself faithful and loving. Thank You once again.

All honour, all glory, all praise to You.

Lord, as for 2011, take my heart whose nature is to beat for me alone, fill it up with You - make all Your joy and pain my own. Let my heart beat in sync with Yours. I desire to know You more, to know Your heart's desires more and more.

Thank You. Happy New Year peep! Let's usher in 2011 with Christ again!

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even as i wrote this post 1 year plus ago, i wrote it with absolutely no guarantee that i would survive and go through all this in 2010, yet God knows me well enough, He knows my desires, He knows even what i wrote in this blog.

With God, by His grace, i was able to do all that i wrote, even my "year end wish" that i made during the end of 2009, is the same "year end wish" i made few days back!

Truly, God is in control! 2010 was really a year that was amazing, even through lots of uncertainties like having TB, hives, and all sorts of weird sicknesses, God showed Himself strong, He led me through, not because i was obedient or anything, but simply because He loves me, and He loves you too!

Asides from that, i've made lots of new friends, brothers and sisters, people who i can trust, people whom i pour my life on, amazing people!

Blessings?! Plenty!
new phone, new car, you name it... even job opportunity when im still studying, opportunities after opportunities.

Did i go through things that i wish i had not? Yea, i guess i had loads of them. But i've learned to trust in His love, and His ways, because my ways are limited.

Even as i end this post at 11:59pm. I just wanna say, Lord lead me on. Lord break my heart for what breaks Yours. Teach me to love like You do. Make me the person You want me to be. Amen.

God bless!

Till i blog again

Exam schedules~

2010-12-29T11:22:00.003+08:00

Exam schedules are out.. honestly, im quite scared of it.. it wasn't as bad as the last trimester's with 4 combos in a row.. this time they spread it out, 'a lil'

Subject Code	Subject Name	Date	Time
ETM2046	Analog and Digital Communication (resit)	8/2/11	Afternoon
EMM3126	Digital Image and Video Compression	10/2/11	Afternoon
EMM3026	Digital Audio Signal Processing	12/2/11	Morning
ECP4126	Computer Security and Disaster Recovery	14/2/11	Morning
EMM4076	Computer Graphics and Virtual Reality	16/2/11	Morning
ECP4166	Advance Microprocessors	16/2/11	Afternoon

goosebumps arising haha.. Lord, lead me.

Till i blog again

Shedding of skin.

2010-12-26T09:43:00.001+08:00

Hey there peeps, sorry for the lack of updates, life has been really busy (and still is), but awesome nonetheless. before i get started with my post, i'd like to once again wish everyone a blessed Christmas and a happy new year!

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Again the time for my blog to shed it's skin is drawing near.
To unfold yet another chapter of my journey in life. Time to seek God for directions again

:D

TQ Lord for the last 1 year of learning to trust You despite it all, despite going through all sorts of sickness, all sorts of trials, all sort of uncertainties, You remain faithful, always there with grace so sufficient, with new strength and love to lift me up back on my feet again. Truly, Your ways are higher than mine, though sometimes i may not understand, but i'll trust You because You are a good God, and an awesome Father.

The shedding of skin is vital for insects, snakes, and my blog.. it symbolizes growth and life.
Lord, take the wheel and lead me on.

Till i blog again

Space to grow

2010-12-12T21:28:00.006+08:00

So, it has been exactly one month since i last posted this image on facebook.. seems like a long time ago, but it's only a month ago!

I'm re-post-ing this photo because i feel the urge to do so, i'm actually very sleepy right now, but certain things just can't wait, and yes, sleeping can wait.

Things i appreciate in life: Space to grow..

I wonder how many of you appreciate this, cuz this is really a big thing to me, a really, really big thing. As a child in my younger days, if you knew me well enough (like God did, i think my parents also don't know certain things, so yea, you judge), you wouldn't believe what has become-d of me today. No, i'm not implying that i'm perfect now, but i believe very much better-of than what or who i use to be.

Life is such that as a human, we I made lots of mistakes in life, some bigger some smaller, some known some unknown, i think everyone has them.. no?

Nevertheless, whether big or small, throughout the years, i've constantly improve myself, not by my own strength, i tried, and i've failed and failed and failed. I think there's no end in counting the numbers of times i failed trying on my own.

Well, i've grown by His Grace, in certain areas faster, in certain areas slower, but hey, isn't everyone doing that too? Life is a journey, i believe everyone pretty much agrees with that, a journey takes time, it takes effort, and yes, it's cost us something.

Just like a journey in the car, the most important thing is that we have a destination, without which, the journey wouldn't make any sense. Well, unless you're going on a joy ride, which leads you back to where you came from, which is rather redundant i think..

Even with GPS sometimes, i still get lost, i still make the wrong turnings, either because i didn't wanna follow the instructions or i simply couldn't really understand them well enough or i tried, but other cars were in the way and sort of blocked me. However, with that in mind, at the end of the day, i still make it to my destination, i still arrive, though sometimes the route is elongated due to wrong turnings and even reading the road signs wrongly.

Similarly in life, i've made wrong turnings, bad decisions, poor judgments, and what not.. Thank God, by His grace, somehow, somehow i made it through.

Looking from God's eyes, He loves me the same, same as the best person on earth, same as the worst person on earth. He loves us all the same, because He paid the price.

I really appreciate His grace for me because it provided me space to grow, through mistakes, i learn, sometimes i still fail, but His grace is ever sufficient. No i'm not backing anyone up, if that's what you're thinking, no, i'm just saying it for myself.. His love, His blood, His grace, covered it all, all my past, all my wrongs, and He's the Father that always runs towards me, clothes me, puts the saddle on my feet, puts on the signet ring, and restores my position.

All glory to God, the One who restored me, the One who has lifted even when i was in the miry clay. It is like the song "For all You've done & Lord i offer my life to You"

My Saviour, Redeemer
Lifted me from the miry clay
Almighty forever
I will never be the same

‘Cause You came near
From the everlasting
To the world we live
The Father’s only Son

You lived and You died
You rose again on high
You opened the way
For the world to live again
Hallelujah
For all You’ve done

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Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Who am i? I may be a no one on earth, but He loves me nonetheless. I'm His son, in whom He's well pleased, because of what Jesus did on the cross.

// Dear Lord,
// thank You for lifting me up from the miry clay,
// thank You for coming to save us all,
// continue to use me,
// i know i'll never be the same,
// for all You've done.
// once again, i offer my life as a living sacrifice,
// even for the things of the past,
// use it for Your glory.
// Amen.

To everyone who's feeling worthless, who's feeling like life ain't worth it, listen up.

God is not done with you, He has greater things for you, and most importantly, He's not here to judge, Jesus was judged on our behalf, and all, ALL God wants to do now, is to restore you, to build you up, to make you the person you were meant to be. Believe me when i tell you i know what it means to feel like a nothing. I've been through it, but He restored me, simply because He loves me the same.

I've heard of stories where drug addicts became radical for God even to the extend of answering their calling as pastors. Was it hard? I believe so, but even so, i believe they had this in mind: "everything i've been through, use it for Your glory"

So again, to you who feels like a no one, God is telling you that He can still do great and mighty things in your life, just as He has done to many others. And the best part is that He WANTS to. So here's your chance
:D

He came in love, He paid the price, He rose in victory.
And now i'm free. Free to run, free to dance, free to live for You!

[ notice that i put up the 17th image as well? let's just say i'll be too busy to update during the week with 4 midterm papers haha.. so this is the update of the week, be blessed! ]

on a "random note" : if you're free (or free yourself) ... go read up this LINK

It's about a person name Mephiposheth, son of Jonathan(King David's best friend)
Do read up 2 Samuel 9 & 2 Samuel 4:7 (for background info) first if possible..
Really good stuff, "Son vs Servant, Grace vs Law"
:)

Till i blog again

December 9 (What's my stand?)

2010-12-09T18:13:00.001+08:00

A series of teaching He's giving me lately... well, He has been challenging my stand, in a good way of course.. lately it has been about my nation, my neighbours, my 'enemies' and enemies...

do i really love my nation & the people in it? how far am i willing to lay it down? how much am i willing to love them, and yes, its easier said than done!

"how is dealing with a well-meaning annoying person similar to and different from dealing with an enemy?"

something i learn today, and He's giving me "practical session" now.. Oh Lord help me.. Teach me to love like You do.. rid me of my sub standards..

and yea, that's what i posted on FB..

but lets consider this... if we're not able to even love or show kindness to an annoying well-meaning person, are we able to love our enemies?

it's always a learning process, not really rewarding if you were to judge it in the natural, it's almost like foolishness to some.. yet, i know that this is the narrower gate that i will somehow need to learn about..

so yea, praise God.. i showed some kindness.. not much, but hey, its a start!

note to self: prayers are awesome.. be ready when you ask for it.. :))

p/s: typed this on my N900 XD and clarence!!! please study la.. not much time left @.@

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Got extra cash?

2010-12-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

Click Here

;))

print it, then i'll get some extra cash too xD

and oh, i've got myself a new handheld device.. Nokia N900.. will post up some pictures soon.. :D

THANKS DAD AND MOM! :D:D:D

time to chill down, and start working~~

Till i blog again

Compilation of my November posts...

2010-12-06T00:03:00.003+08:00

I'm thinking of sending the pic for printing.. either a big A3 sized .. or 30 4R sized pictures...

or.. if you have any other suggestions, do tell me :D

Till i blog again

November 30

2010-11-29T10:23:00.003+08:00

So, ive come to an end of my 30 days blogging spree.. haha.. i'll try to keep writing :) Hope you peeps were blessed with my photos and sharings :)

Till i blog again

November 29

2010-11-29T10:22:00.001+08:00

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November 28

2010-11-28T18:47:00.001+08:00

Day 28: Beauty

"The beauty of every storm is the rainbow that comes after it"

I'm not a super optimistic person. It may look like it, but i'm not.
YET, the truth is, everyday is a new day, with new opportunities, with new grace and hope.

Yesterday, i went through a storm in the inside. It was a fight against one of the toughest opponent ever, myself.

I believe, many times in our lives, there are always battles as such, a fight against oneself. A fight that seems impossible. Cuz, who's gonna be the winner if i win and i lose right?

Our spirit fights with our flesh, constantly, it might be a 50:50 for a while, but eventually, it'll be a 100:0 or 0:100, well, depending on who wins the war.

Today, in church, i was reminded about this war, even as i looked back on what happened yesterday, and the days before it, it spoke directly to me.

"What's on the inside? Who's on the winning side? Don't just stand there, arise!"

Well, redemption came, and now i'm at ease. Don't miss out on what God has for you now, don't waste another opportunity, He's here to bless, here to redeem, here to make new, here to give life, and life in it's abundance.

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For those who are currently facing a storm, don't give in to what circumstances say, don't give up hope, don't give in to any excuses that is constantly lurking around seeking whom it may devour. Rise up, pick up your sword, pick up your shield. The battle may be intense, but the victor has been decided. Jesus won the war, and i'm on His side.

TQ Lord for the triple confirmation and the assurance and love that comes with it. am blessed, am touched, am ready to step up again. lead me.

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On a slightly random note, i'll be away in PD for the next whole week for National Conference! A once in a lifetime opportunity for me as a campus student, to take a stand, to learn, and to be the difference in my campus!

:D

i'm kindda wondering what will happen to the "November 29 and 30" posts.. should i post it now.. or after the conference? Hmm... ah well..

:))

Till i blog again

November 27

2010-11-28T18:30:00.002+08:00

Day 27: Where am i heading?

Somehow, i felt lost. [ but now i'm ok ]

Till i blog again

November 26

2010-11-27T11:15:00.001+08:00

Day 26: What's on the inside?

Going through my daily life, tasks, problems, and blessings seems to be everywhere.
Which of those captures my heart? Which of those weigh more?

A wise man once said:

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

So, what's on the inside?

Who am i?
What do i exist for?
Where do i go from here?
How should i live my life?

A mirror, look at yourself, make the adjustments, get back on your feet, and live.

Life is full of hope, full of mercy, full of grace, full of love, full of second chances.

Life, it's a journey; there's none like it. You have only one.

p/s: I know it does sound similar to the post i posted on the 24th, but yea, this is what i was prompted to write about. Time for me to calibrate myself again. :)

Till i blog again

November 25

2010-11-25T21:23:00.001+08:00

Day 25: Time to walk the talk..

No, today wasn't exactly the kind of day i was hoping for. Nothing in particular went wrong, except me being VERY unproductive.

I'm putting too much pressure on myself? No, not at all.
I had a whole day free from classes, yet, i did nothing despite having loads of work that needs to be submitted tomorrow.

But yea, i can't stay in the dumps, i've gotta pick up myself, and surrender it all back to Him, let Him take over.

Walk the talk eh? Lord, lead me.

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Note to self:
Contrary to popular belief, Clarence's days are not always all happy and up beat!
Today was one of those, i may not show it on my face, but deep inside, i feel so lousy.

But yea, wake up call! Clarence, it's not too late, don't stay in the dumps, you've gotta pick yourself up, time to walk the talk.

"Being different starts with a decision" .. So what say you?

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The war is getting intense // i'm on the winning side.
Because He paid the price.

Till i blog again

November 24

2010-11-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

Day 24: What governs your heart?

What governs your heart? Sometimes, we just need to take some time off, and do some self reflection. Many a times, we tend to let obstacles and challenges, circumstances and trouble rule over what we think, what we feel and what we do..

Let us learn to not be OWNED by the troubles of this world, not be OWNED by things that weights us down, instead, let the peace of God take that place, let it rule over you, over your actions, your thoughts, your feelings...

I'm not saying that it would be easy, but it's not impossible. And when you're able to do so, you'll see that nothing is impossible! The problems would not vanish into thin air, but you're not overpowered by it.

:)

Here's step 1: Surrender. And let Him take over :)

I believe many of you would be blessed with just that simple step. Give Him a try, it's gonna change your life.

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November 23

2010-11-23T09:58:00.000+08:00

Day 23: Trust

Despite the itch.. i'll choose to trust.
Thank You Lord for Your mercies are new every morning, enough, more than enough for me to go through each day! I receive Your love, and healing, mercy and grace.

I proclaim a complete healing to take place. I bind the works of the evil one. I release peace and restoration.

satan never learn does he? the more he tries to put me down, i think the people around me would see more of Jesus living in me..

good for you satan.. you're on the losing side, as always >:)

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November 22

2010-11-23T09:53:00.001+08:00

Day 22: Thorn in the flesh?

So yea, somehow i got hives... the cause is unknown, i prefer to think it as mosquito bite allergy ... i'm having lots of "bite" marks all over me now...

Initially i thought it was just some mosquito bite, so i didn't really do anything bout it.. i actually posted up on FB stating that:

i took a 20 min nap. woke up to find 3 mosquito bites on my left arm, and 8 on my right.. haha :) sweet blood eh?

Little did i know... towards the end of the day.. around 11pm or so... the irritation got worse.. i was itching all over.. especially my hands and legs ... "swollen"... My mom took me to the clinic for a jab on my butt... and yea, it was effective for the night, but the itch came back in the day... during my class time... and i had a 4 hour class! It was so not cool scratching all over during class...

i actually posted this in class:

AHHHHH....... the itch is so so so so bad that i feel like running out of the class back home to sapu the medications. Lord, i thank You for the healing that is taking place. Amen!

And the awesome thing was... right after i posted it... the lecturer ended the class... so i ran home to apply the medication.. err.. it wasn't really effective.. but yea.. i guess it helped...

and i actually do feel a lil ugly...

the hives is making me look ugly ...
self esteem -1
trust in God's loving kindness +10
trust in God's faithfulness +10
:)

For those who wanna find out more about hives .. you can click HERE
[Source - Wikipedia ]

How does it feel like? like a thousand mosquito attacking you simultaneously .. not cool at all...

As of now, all i can do is to practice self control, not scratching it... continue to believe and receive the healing that is already taking place...

Honestly, if i could skip class this whole week... i would rather not, though the thought is rather fun.. but i'll be skipping the entire week next week... so yea.. i'll just have to go for my classes this week :)

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November 21

2010-11-23T09:43:00.001+08:00

Day 21: 365, Surrendered wholly to You

Rededicated my 365 days to Him... though sometimes "unfortunate" things may happen, though sometimes i may not understand, though sometimes there's doubt in my heart, though sometimes life seems like a misery...

i'll choose to trust, choose to listen, choose to surrender.

A life of faith, is full of doubts ... without doubts, there's no need of using faith right?

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November 20

2010-11-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

Day 20: Jeremiah 29:11

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November 19

2010-11-23T09:32:00.007+08:00

Day 19: A celebration of thanksgiving for life

A VERY VERY VERY BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME!

Thanks for making my day, i certainly enjoyed my birthday! =D

Some of my 22nd birthday facts [ inspired by Alan OYL ]

A total of :

242 Facebook wall post, comments and messages
3 Calls
12 SMSs
7 YM & MSN messages

Once again, thank you! For all the wishes and gifts!

[ Photo credits to Mei Theng ]

Before i end, here's something EPIC!
[ Photo credits to Erika ]

Rakesh: Eh he knows too much edi la...

*starts spinning me in the clockwise direction*

...

Clarence: It doesn't work that way

Rakesh *spins me in the counter clockwise direction*

XD

EDIT:
Other photos can be found here:
Birthday 2010

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November 18

2010-11-23T09:15:00.000+08:00

Day 18: Be prepared!

Be prepared? I actually foresee the birthday bashing, so i wore another pair of shorts first... haha.. :)

Thanks for the bashing anyway MMUCS

:))

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November 17

2010-11-18T19:17:00.004+08:00

Day 17: A Grateful Cry
[ Version 1 ]

A grateful cry? Yea, yesterday i had "A Day in the Secret Place" in church where we spent our day in His presence..

when the song was being sung, i teared uncontrollably, because of what The Lord has done, and what He's doing, and what He'll be doing.

p/s: lol.. i didnt know where to put the "17" :)) had to edit the picture XD

ah oh... i wanna go stargazing tonight :D
just hope ill have the time to do so la... wanna thank God in this manner..
:)

[ Version 2 ]

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November 16

2010-11-18T19:12:00.002+08:00

Day 16: A Change of Perspective

Sorry for the slow update... was really, really, really, busy :)
Enjoy :D

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November 15

2010-11-16T01:49:00.002+08:00

Day 15: Like a tree planted by streams of water

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Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the LORD, and who meditates on his law day and night.

That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither—whatever they do prospers.

[ Psalms 1: 1-3 ]

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Lord, teach me to be that kind of person, one who is like a tree planted by streams of water, one that yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither, and whatever that i do, Lord, let it prosper. Thank You, Amen!

Good nite peeps! (Hakka: Ngai he soi muk sen... hahaha)

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November 14

2010-11-14T14:21:00.001+08:00

Day 14: Beautiful day

The beauty of everyday
is not judged by how
you see it. Everyday
is beautiful, simply
because God made it

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Things i learn in church today
Mexican Wave:
1) starts with a few intoxicated people
2) starts when the football match gets boring by a group of unsatisfied people
3) starts with a group of committed people
4) starts with people who are persistent even when the response is limited

A spiritual wave can also start with a few people, a people who are unsatisfied with what the world has to offer, a people who are committed, a people who are persistent even when the response is limited.

I'm starting one, it doesn't matter if the response is small, but i'll persevere, i'll push on.

I'll not be one who kills the wave. But rather 'fan the fire' and let it burn!

Any Mexican Wave fan coming aboard? :D

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On a random note, to everyone who are busy with studies and work,
all the best, do your best, and let God handle the rest :)

p/s: the celebration has started :) thanks

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November 13

2010-11-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

Day 13: Fine tunings...

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on a slightly random note, i finished my MUET today, it wasn't excellent, but hopefully i'll get myself at least a Band 4 or 5 la .. Band 6 would be awesome though hahaha :)

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November 12

2010-11-13T15:30:00.000+08:00

Day 12: Space to grow

Many times in my life, i really thank God for my parents for providing me space to grow, and not just that, God allowed me to grow without pushing me too much, allowing me to take breathers, and yes, times like those are awesome.

As much as He has shown me patience and tenderness in building me up, i ask O Lord that You teach me how to give allowance in terms of time and space, for one to grow and learn, that each one around me will be the person You'd want them to be.

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November 11

2010-11-12T01:34:00.005+08:00

Day 11: Family..

some things happened back home.. but nonetheless, thank You Lord, for being our protector :)

Unashamed - Starfield (JS cover)

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November 10

2010-11-11T10:27:00.001+08:00

Day 10: The little things in life ... sometimes means so much

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November 9

2010-11-10T12:47:00.002+08:00

Day 9: He called me out..

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November 8

2010-11-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

Day 8: a positive attitude

A bookmark that i bought during one of my CG outings :)

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November 7

2010-11-08T12:51:00.002+08:00

Day 7: Sadly i didn't have the time to visit 7-11

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November 6

2010-11-06T19:23:00.001+08:00

Day 6: Bright Hill

Epic Outing 2010
19 cars from World Harvest Church went to Bukit Cahaya,
Taman Pertanian at Shah Alam for our sectional gathering
(sections: S3, S4, S7 and S8).

A total of 73 people went there.. and most went for Skytrex (excluding pregnant moms and injured civilians)

Everyone got through safely, slight injuries, sunburns and prolly tired muscles.

Summary: Epic.

Lesson of the day: Set your coordinates right(GPS)
[ p/s: once again my apologies to Denion and Jenny ]
:))

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November 5

2010-11-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

Day 5: Home

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November 4

2010-11-05T02:31:00.003+08:00

Day 4: Filled with first times

haha more than that, i did a lot of other first time stuff... like disturbing my roomie.. in quite a kejam way.. but hey.. if not now, when? lols

Situation:
1) David Yee is a McD fan .. more like an addict
2) He asked me to buy him a regular set of Double Cheese burger, and i did, assuming he would wait for the food to come back and eat it
3) he's currently sleeping
4) im hungry

verdict? XD

verdict? i ate it :)) and left the fries there.. cuz i bought myself a regular fries too.. kindda jelak d.. lol

anyways,

let's see how he respond to it tomorrow morning.. till then, my life is still safe XD

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November 3

2010-11-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

Day 3: Life is beautiful

You make everything beautiful
You make all things new
You are ever so wonderful
You are always good

- Always good, Acts Church

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November 2

2010-11-03T10:53:00.002+08:00

Day 2: Thank you & See you soon

[ Version 1 ]

[ Version 2 ]

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Thank You Lord for putting people around me who cares and does put in the effort to make sure i'm doing well in life. Thank You.

I pray for grace and strength to be upon myself for the days ahead, cuz judging it from the natural perspective .. i'm gonna get drained, and drained, and drained... (though it might be fun) but .. yea ..

*peace out*

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November 1

2010-11-01T01:05:00.001+08:00

So, November is here.. i'll try to post up 1 picture/image a day for the next 30 days.

Day 1:
Wisdom
What is right? What is wrong?

1 Kings 3:7-9

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Sem 1 [ Post Mortem ]

2010-10-23T11:42:00.004+08:00

So, the results came out yesterday ..
Let's look at what roughly happened during the previous semester:

1) I took up a post in CF
2) I took up a job offer in MMU
3) I took 6 subjects last semester
4) I made many friends; many of which i can really treat as my brothers and sisters.

Last semester, like i said (in my previous posts), was awesome.

So how did my results turned up?
Well, surprisingly, i'm actually quite satisfied with it.

Despite my busyness throughout the entire semester, i got 1A, 3B+, a C-*

For that C-*, i kindda knew that it was a borderline paper, anyways, the overall results is rather satisfying. As of now, im gonna submit that paper for re-grade-ing... prayerfully, hoping that the lecturer would be kind to give me a few more marks just to pass the paper..
[ in MMU, C- is a fail, the * means i can take the supplementary paper
and oh, my first ever failed paper in MMU, not bad i suppose? :)) ]

Whatever it would be, why should i even let this pull me down right? :)

p/s: To those who aren't happy with your results or feels like a failure, look here, God is saying, you are the child that He loves, and in you, He is well pleased. You've got nothing to prove in you, I am well pleased

FFH - Well Pleased

You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
Nothing high, nothing low, could separate you from me
You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
You've got nothing to prove, in you I am well pleased

And when you walk through the dark
I'll be a light unto your feet
And when you cry in the night
I'll be the comfort that you seek

Long before you spoke a word
Or your face was ever seen
Your every breath, your every move
Was ever visible, ever visible to me

'Cause you are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
Nothing high, nothing low, could separate you from me
You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
You've got nothing to prove in you I am well pleased

When you need me I'm already there
I hear your every prayer
And every step you take, I take with you
And every move you make, I make it to, oh

And I want you to know, I love you
And I want you to know

That when you walk through the dark
I'll be a light unto your feet
And when you cry in the night
I'll be the comfort that you seek

Long before you spoke a word
Or your face was ever seen
Your every breath, your every move
Was ever visible, it was visible to me

You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
Nothing high, nothing low, could separate you from me
You are the child that I love, in you I am well pleased
You've got nothing to prove in you I am
You've got nothing to prove, in you I am, I am well pleased

I am well pleased
You are the child that I love
You are the child that I love
You are the child that I love

It's the inside that makes the difference, your heart

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The Unveiled Journey

2010-10-17T18:46:00.003+08:00

Approximately 2 years back,

during my church camp, i remember receiving a mandate and a direction from God through a prophecy..

well, i can't exactly tell you what's it about, but it was big! never would i imagine that day coming, never would i even dare to see that in my future, but He had it all planned out, and even so, He didn't just rubbed it in, He didn't force me to give all that i desire up, He didn't just say something and not provide the strength, the support, and the peace that i'd need.

it's not that i just started to see the plan unveiled, not that i suddenly see it, but now i just feel comfortable sharing it, and putting it down in my blog as a sign post to remind me, and redirect my path should stray away..

this time, during the CF camp, once again He reminded me of that secret place, where i used to meet Him face to face, where our relationship was more than just a God - Human relationship, more than a brother, more like a friend you could always trust.

yes, it's been a while since i've been to that secret place, it's prolly now filled with cobwebs and dust so thick i couldn't breathe in there. but here He is saying, "Come, lets clean up this mess! I wanna know you more, I wanna be known by you, I wanna teach you the unforced rhythms of grace!"

my heart melted again, melted again. How could Someone like Him, so great and mighty, the creators of the heavens and the earth, would even look down to the face of the earth and see creations like us, and wanting to know us more?

how could Someone like Him, would even give us, His creations second chances? why would He?

simply because He loves us, so much, so much, that He didn't withhold His only begotten Son for us, to bridge the gap between us and Him.

what could i possibly say back to Him? what's my response back to Him?

i guess all i could really say is:

Time to pant for more. Time to go deep again. Time to make sure the grass on the path doesn't start growing. Time to say: im willing, teach me.

Well, the new semester is here, with new subjects and new timetable, and to my fans, just so you know where i might be during certain hours, here's my timetable
:))

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The Stand
Joel Houston

Key: C
Intro:
C

Verse 1:
C
You stood before creation
F
eternity in Your hand
C/E Am
You spoke the earth into motion
F
My soul now to stand

Verse 2:
C
You stood before my failure
F
And carried the cross for my shame
C/E Am
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
F
My soul now to stand

PreChorus:
F
So what can I say
Dm Am
And what could I do
F G
But offer this heart O God
Am C G Am F C G Am
Completely to You

Verse 3:
C
So I'll walk upon salvation
F
Your Spirit alive in me
C/E Am
This life to declare Your promise
F
My soul now to stand

Chorus:
F C
So I'll stand
G Am F
With arms high and heart abandoned
C G Am F
In awe of the One who gave it all
C
I'll stand
G Am
My soul Lord to You surrendered
F C G Am
All I am is Yours

Coda:
F
So what can I say
Dm Am
And what could I do
C Dm7 G
But offer this heart O God
Am
Completely to You

What can i say? What could i do? But offer this heart O God, completely to You.

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To sum it up...

2010-10-14T21:44:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates,
life has been busy,
yet, i find joy in it.

Yes, at times i do complain a lot.
That's cuz i've lost my focus,
when i've realigned my sight,
once again i see His fiery eyes,
full of loving power,
ever mighty in every situation.

The past semester has been a blessing. 'Nuff said.

FFH - The Long Haul
It used to be second nature to me
To want to turn and walk away
Since I met you those days are gone
Now I want to stay, and say

I'm in for the long haul
Bring on the fight
I will, I will stand tall
With all my might
And face the wind and face the rain
And even the pain
Through it all
I'm in for the long haul

So many people just packing it in
They don't give it half a chance
Not me and you, we've got it all
And it's gonna last
Oh yeah, bring it on 'cause

For the ride of my life
With you by my side
Holding on tight, because
Our guiding light is the Father
And we'll be alright

Oh btw, i had my MUET speaking test this morning, it was a breeze! I had fun, though everyone was rather quiet haha .. overall, everything went well..

My work isn't exactly done, but i can safely say it's around 80% done la.. my head is kindda spinning now .. can't get my work done now ..

Tomorrow! CF CAMP 10/11 :D:D:D

Yes, im excited! Friggin excited!

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¿canyoucypherme?

2010-10-09T02:32:00.001+08:00

While everyone else, well.. not everyone, but almost all the degree students are having their break.. here i am, still working..

=\

sigh, no mode to do work actually, cuz everyone else is having fun.. not that im not.. just that i feel like getting a break .. from everything if possible ..

it looks like a cute lil lizard doesnt it? xD
some random doodling when i was bored a while ago ;D

holidays are gonna end soon...

:(

worst still when i haven't really got my break.. and MUET is on Thursday morning, i've yet to get myself prepared, don't exactly know what to expect.. but yea..

no holidays for me?
:(
another long semester's coming up..
i'm grumpy now.. prolly cuz i need rest... so yea, nites peeps..

tomorrow is a new day, with new grace and new strength. Amen!

on a side note, condolences to my roomie.

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In me - Rebecca St. James

2010-09-22T10:05:00.000+08:00

You said the words
And made the heavens
You breathed the stars
And put their place in the sky
You waved Your hand
Painted a sunset
You smiled and gave a heartbeat life

Crazy to think
That Your holy hands
Made everything I see
It's so hard to believe
That You the God of creation say
I've got this power in me

In me
There is strength to move a mountain
In me
There is faith to walk on water
In me
If I just believe
The Way and the Truth and the Life is
In me

So please remind me
When I feel useless
That my flesh and bone
Has more than meets the eye
Because you burn
Like a fire within me
And there's nothing out of reach when I
Let your Spirit loose and be alive

Cuz In me
There is strength to move a mountain
In me
There is faith to walk on water
In me
If I just believe
The Way and the Truth and the Life is
In me

(You said the words
And made the heavens
You breathed the stars
And put their place in the sky
You waved Your hand
Painted a sunset
You smiled and gave a heartbeat life)

You set the world in motion
Put the waves in the ocean
And when it all comes down
I've got to believe
That You the God of creation say
I've got this power

In me
There is strength to move a mountain
In me
There is faith to walk on water
In me
There is strength to move a mountain
In me
There is faith to walk on water
In me
If I just believe
The Way and the Truth and the Life is
Oh, The Way and the Truth and the Life is
In me

The marathon's coming up. Lord, i really do feel useless at times, kindda tired of this race that i'm running for God knows what purpose..

So yea, remind me that there's this power in me. Help me consistently look up, and just continually draw strength from You.

I thank You Lord for You've said that Your grace is sufficient for me, so i'll cling on to that, and everything else that i cling on to (which is not of You), i'll lay it at Your feet.

Lord, take control once again. Thank You :D

Amen.

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Selamat Hari Malaysia

2010-09-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

I started the Book of Isaiah today, and this would be my prayer for my beloved nation:

Isaiah 1:24-31
This Decree, therefore, of the Master, God-of-the-Angel-Armies,
the Strong One of Israel:
"This is it! I'll get my oppressors off my back.
I'll get back at my enemies.
I'll give you the back of my hand,
purge the junk from your life, clean you up.
I'll set honest judges and wise counselors among you
just like it was back in the beginning.
Then you'll be renamed
City-That-Treats-People-Right, the True-Blue City."
God's right ways will put Zion right again.
God's right actions will restore her penitents.

Lord, i thank You that Malaysia is on Your mind, i thank You that Your heart is for the people of the nations, i thank You for this land filled with milk and honey, i thank You for the citizens of this nation, i thank You for all the hills, mountains, river, lakes and oceans, this masterpiece of Yours.

I bless Malaysia in the name of Jesus. I ask o Lord that the hearts of people would turn to righteousness, turn to justice, turn to the Lord of lords.

I ask o Lord for a sense of responsibility towards the nation to be upon the hearts of people, that they would take a stand and do something about it instead of just complaining and pointing fingers at a distance.

To Malaysia:
Have a blessed birthday, i bless you with social, economical and political wisdom, i pray that you'd make decisions that are just and honest. May you grow wiser, and mature in all your ways.

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Not an everyday thing

2010-08-30T11:45:00.005+08:00

Sleeping in the car...

is not an everyday thing...

[ push, keep pushing, keep pushing .. nothing's impossible with God .. on a random note, internals, i'm sorry for putting you through these again .. ]

MENGEJAR HADIR-MU

Music: Giving My Best / Words: Sidney Mohode

G D/F# C
DEKAT PADA-MU ITU RINDUKU
G D/F# C
SETIAP KATAKU KAU PUN MENUNGGU
Am7 G/B
TAK KUSANGKA KUTEMUKAN
Am7 D G
SATU KASIH YANG ABADI
C Am7 Dsus D
KINI KU DATANG DAN KUBAWA HIDUPKU

REFF:
C D
MEMANDANG WAJAH-MU
Bm7 Em7
MENGIKUTI KEBAIKAN-MU
C D
MENGEJAR HADIR-MU
G
DALAM HIDUPKU
C D/C
MEMBAWA SEMBAHKU
Bm7 Em7
MENYATAKAN KEBESARAN-MU
C D
MENGEJAR HADIR-MU
G
DALAM HIDUPKU

[flu, sore throat, leave. thank you ]
p/s: Thank You Lord for wonderful team mates and friends .. :):):)
In moments like these,
Jesus take the wheel.

Well, not just moments like these, but especially during times like this.. :)

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Look up...

2010-08-25T11:03:00.000+08:00

So, few days passed, assignments still looks like one big mountain for me..

Currently, i find it hard to do anything, not really stuck-ed, but rather overwhelmed by the size of how big it seem like.. it's like when you wanna climb up a mountain, the moment before you start climbing, you'd first look and be 'amazed' at how it looks like... yea, that sort of situation.

Despite me always telling people that my God is bigger than my problems, bigger than my mountains, at times like this, i still feel the pressure and stress.

Anyways, somehow, i went to 'friendster' for a bit[ why would i even wanna go there? :)) beats me.. ] and while i looking through my profile, i saw this image, and i was reminded once again to look up.

So yea, i guess that's what i'll do now, taking some time off just to look up, get refreshed and strengthened once again.

[ updates regarding assignments and work ]

Spanish assignment done :D
Lab report 1 done :D
Database tutorial submission done :D
more to come ... (:

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Impossible?

2010-08-20T13:21:00.001+08:00

[ taking a breather ]

6 assignments + 2 full reports in 2 weeks = impossible?

6 assignments and the language(programming/non programming) used:
i) Java ( Java language )
ii) Database ( SQL language )
iii) Software Engineering ( PHP, HTML, CSS and probably some SQL language )
iv) Analog and Digital Communication ( Matlab language? - programming also )
v) Spanish ( spanish language, finally a non-programming assignment :P )
vi) Law for engineers ( english :P )

Deadlines? within 2 weeks. [ all of which just started not too long ago, blames all the mid term exams *_* ]

2 Full lab report, 1 in 3 days time..

Yea, as much as it seems impossible.. having to do so many different assignments with so many different languages.. I'm placing my trust in God. I know He will definitely bring me through, not as through fire, but on wings like an eagle.

Occasional cheering me on would REALLY help, i guess.

[ God be my strength... 6 assignments in 2 weeks. Thank You Lord for the strength, wisdom, favor and guidance i'll be needing throughout these weeks to come :D ]

I guess i'll not be going home this weekend, save some travelling time and lepaking time, since there's new toys at home :))

"I'll make it till the end, with God as my Strength"

Mighty to save - Hillsong

Intro: D A F#m E

D A
Everyone needs compassion
F#M
Love that's never failing
E
Let mercy fall on me
D A
Everyone needs forgiveness
F#m
The kindness of a saviour
E
The hope of nations

D E D E

Chorus:
A
Saviour
E
He can move the mountains
D A
My God is mighty to save
F#m E
He is mighty to save
A
Forever
E
Author of Salvation
D A
He rose and conquered the grave
F#m E
Jesus Conquered the grave

Verse 2:

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I Surrender

D E D E

Instrumental:

D A E F#m
D A E F#m

D A
Shine your light and
E
Let the whole world see
F#m D
We're singing for the glory
A E
Of the risen King
F#m D A
Jesus Shine your light and
E
Let the whole world see
F#m D A
We're singing for the glory
E
Of the risen King

Outro:

D A
Shine your light and
E
Let the whole world see
F#m D A
We're singing for the glory
E
Of the risen King
F#m D A
Jesus Shine your light and
E
Let the whole world see
F#m D A
We're singing for the glory
E
Of the risen King

I trust in God, because He is real. Real-er than any visible things.

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EDIT:
Well, even though i'm packed up with work load, i'm still gonna go 'teach tuition' later and yea, church on sunday as well.. nothing's gonna stop me :)

Till i blog again

Fuhhhh~~

2010-08-19T00:45:00.000+08:00

[ just came back from futsal and dinner, letting the food sink down properly ]

Releasing a long deep breath would describe best what i'm feeling now.

Had 2 midterms (both tough subjects) in a row and my first lab session this trimester this week... glad it's over, for now...

The first midterm this week was a rather disappointing one.. the questions were not exactly tough, more like impossible -.-

After the paper, i went to CF as usual, took my dinner-supper = dinper? at HB1 with Colin and Vinod... head home, and slept trough the night..

Morning came, the Java book was taunting me, cuz i've not touched it yet ...

Sometimes, it feels like life is falling apart with "to do lists" and the such.. something to hold life together like how hair gels work with hair would be awesome in situations like these..

So yea, anyways, i went for 50% of my classes today, cuz i really needed to study.. or at least, that's what i think la... oh, my phone went haywire today .. it sent out 25 same sms throughout the day -.-

time to change a new phone? :D:D [ mom, dad, if you're reading this --> *hint hint :P ]

The Java midterm was rather ok i think, but i'll only find out when the results are released. Hopefully it went well la...

FUTSAL was the next thing on my list.. well since my CG [ care group ] organized a futsal game thingy this week .. and so, i headed to the court as soon as i got changed and ready for the game..

As usual, i played as the goalie .. i kindda suck as a forward/midfielder cuz my stamina seriously needs some workout ..

Some of my friends started playing while waiting for both Aaron and me to arrive..

"Waiting eagerly to enter the field xD"

Yea, anyways, goal keeping was fun as usual.. :))
after almost 1.30 hours [ i think ] ... i had to swap out, cuz i cramped both my legs .. at the same time.. quite epic rite? haha

i went for a short stroll just outside the court and took this picture:

on a random note: i should get myself a tripod :D

Hmm yea, so as the title goes ... Fuhhhh~~~

Time to get my bath, and sleep, class at 9am ... skip? :p

Till i blog again

Dead Pixels

2010-08-06T18:03:00.001+08:00

I had a rather interesting minum session with a Deric, Alvin and Kai Wen a while ago.
Among the topics, i find this rather interesting, and personal, at least, to me.

Dead pixels are pixels on your screen that has died.. or malfunctioned, not being able to reproduce any color or display anything, but a dot.

I for one, quite jaga my monitor and screen .. be it my laptop, handphone, camera or whatsoever. so it hurts when a pixel dies on me..

Anyways, our topic was about us, humans. Alvin asked me "Why does God love us so much? Even though we are so flawed. Why?" [ i'm just paraphrasing it ]

Well, i couldn't answer Him.. because, the answer is "Simply because"

And then Deric suggested that each of us are a pixel. We cant see the big image, God being the artist. I added on, asking them to imagine for each person who dies, and goes to hell, being a dead pixel.

Isn't that just sad? [ prolly each of us have different things that we appreciate more, for me, dead pixels kindda speaks to me ]

Imagine your monitor right now, filled with dead pixels? How would you feel? I'd be very very very sad. So much so that i would say, "Pixels, come on, don't die on me..."

God prolly looks at us the same way, He loves us so much, that He is not willing to see any pixels die, not willing to have any dead pixels on His monitor. He would make sure every pixel is working; and each time one starts to fades (eg: we backslide/fall into temptation/sin/etc) He would come, and say "Hey, come on, don't go, don't go... I am the Light" or something like that.

Well, for Alvin, badminton rackets seems to mean a lot to him, for Kai Wen, canvas means a lot to her.. for Deric ... err, he was undecided. Anyways, there's surely things in life that we kindda treasure and have feelings for...

Through this conversation, i begin to appreciate life more. i'm beginning to appreciate the people around me more, to love and care for them even more, to make sure non of them becomes a dead pixel, cuz i know how much it hurts.

If this speaks to you, and you don't wanna be a dead pixel, drop me a message, be it a sms, an email, a facebook message, or even an IM chat. I really, really, really wanna be of help to you.

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oh, my name is on the STAFF list of MMU's staff :D:D happy sial xD
[ Chong Chean and i was talking about making our staff car sticker hahaha!! ]

Thank you Mr. Chin and MMU for giving me this chance. :)

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Final exam's schedules are out already.. though it's just a draft now, but it's prolly gonna stay like this.

ECP4136	20-09-2010	AFTERNOON
BHM3086	22-09-2010	AFTERNOON
LSB1010	23-09-2010	AFTERNOON
ECP3076	24-09-2010	AFTERNOON
ETM2046	27-09-2010	AFTERNOON
ECP4156	28-09-2010	AFTERNOON

The coming months would be VERY hectic. But i choose to look to Him, too often we look at, and (at the same time) enlarge the scale of how "big" our problem is, when it is not.

I choose to boast at how BIG my God is, and how small my problem is, in His sight. I know He will lead and guide me through. Be it in a quiet pasture, or in a valley dark and deep. He is my guide, and i thank Him for that. The ever faithful One, the One that never gives up on us, and the One who would go all out for me!

Look to You - Hillsongs United
I know You love me
I know You died for me
I know You care
I know You care

I know You live again
Your life for all my sin
Now I stand here in
In Your grace again

As I look into the sky above
Wonder how my life has changed
Wonder how Your love, it came to me
As I look into the sky above
All my fears, so far away
All I feel is heaven calling me

So I look to You
So I look to You
No one else will do
No one else will do

Till i blog again

Before the morning - Josh Wilson

2010-08-01T09:35:00.005+08:00

BEFORE THE MORNING LYRICS - JOSH WILSON

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning

just something i found encouraging
:)
So hold on, the morning is coming!
:D

Story Behind "Before the Morning"

‎"If we can trust God with our eternity, we gotta trust Him with our now" - Tim Beal

Till i blog again

So busy, yet so lost..

2010-07-30T11:44:00.001+08:00

I wonder if any of you experienced an experience such as this before or not..

There's just so many things to do.. i don't know where to start, i don't know when it'll end, full of uncertainties, full of doubts, full of pressures and expectations.

No, it's not about the work or task at hand. It's about life.

so tell me, am i too focused on the details that i've lost sight of the big picture?

i'm feeling a kind of worry-ness which doesn't make sense, a kind of pressure that doesn't exist..

it is at times like these that i feel like drowning myself with activities, yet i know that's not the right way..

and yet, these are the Words He reminded me:

Psalm 46:10a (Amplified Bible)
Let be and be still, and know (recognize and understand) that I am God.

so yea, that's what i'm gonna do, be still and know that He is God.

The lost get found - Britt Nicole
Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

Why do we go with the flow
Why take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the gray

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
(Stand out)
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
(Stand out)
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it

Till i blog again

Unwind and Rest

2010-07-24T08:58:00.002+08:00

Woah!
Half a trimester came and went, time really flew this trimester, i bet most of my friends would agree with that... *insert joke here* [ one of my friend was telling me that it's because of one of the earthquakes that happened recently, it shook so bad that the time zone was quicken, thus, the time-flying-faster happened.. (yes, it's a joke only) ]

I'm thankful for the trimester thus far, i would say this is a rather fruitful trimester as compared to those before this. looking back, i can't help but just thank God for all that happened and even for all that's going to happen.

There's just too many happenings, that i wouldn't know how to start, or even to remember them vividly enough to describe. Yet, all in all, i'm very contended and blessed.

And yes, thank you peoples in my life. You make my life colorful.

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Life, in the same manner, it's gonna come and go.
waste, and there goes a day.
waste, and there goes experiences that you'd have.
waste, and there goes your life.

So, i'm not gonna waste another day.
Not gonna live life thinking of the yesterdays,
Not gonna live life for the tomorrows,
I'm gonna live life, knowing that this is THE day.

[ at least, i hope :p ]
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Recently, i was learning more about myself, and found myself to be a 'Phlegmatic / Sanguine' character. Its not who i am in the future, not who i am in the past, but who i am in the 'now'.

Strengths, and weaknesses, i lay it before God. Cuz He can use them all, weakness especially, so that people would see the Him-factor in my life ;)

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And oh, yes, back to the topic 'Unwind and Rest' ... It's midterm break yo! Haha, i'm welcoming it with an open arm! Yet, still, i would most probably still be in Cyberjaya next week, so many activities planned and work to be accomplish.. especially cleaning up my room [:p] and studying for my papers.

Alpha Meeting? Bowling? Cleaning? Studying? Graduation? Movie? Rock Climbing? Photography session? Visitations? Work? Change guitar string?

Can't wait to get them done actually :D

[ oh, yes, i'm aware i haven't really blogged bout my UK trip.. hmm.. see how la.. too many pictures to edit first.. ((: ]

To my fellow MMU-ians [non-alpha(s) :p] have a pleasant week ahead. enjoy your holidays, enjoy the company of friends you seldom get, enjoy, cuz it's only 1 week of break XD

[ to the kids i was teaching last night, yes i know it's almost impossible for you to find... and view this, but i sure hope you'd understand the basics on multiplications and divisions... :D Have a great week kids :)]

Today
Intro: G C Em C (x2)

G Em
I don’t wanna waste a second
D C
I don’t wanna waste a moment
G Em C
I don’t wanna live my life in chance

G Em
I am here to make You famous
D C
And tell the world You came to save us
G Em C
I am here to make a change today

Em G
For the sake of this generation
C Am
I live for You
Em G
For the hope of the world’s salvation
C
I live for You

G C
Today, I’m living for You
Em C
Today, my heart beats for you
G C Em C
Today, I’m following You Lord, today
G C
Today, I standing for You
Em C
Today, I’m looking to You
G C Em C
Today, I’m following You Lord, today

Em G C Am
I live all for the glory of Your name
Em G C Am
I live to see this generation saved
Em G C Am
I live to see Your love abound in all the earth
Em G C
I live for You

Till i blog again

Good.

2010-07-18T00:41:00.001+08:00

Today,

i had

a good laugh [ in fact, one that brought me to tears ]

a good time of fellowship-ing

a good time of catching up

a good time of worship

a good time for some 'soul searching'

a good time to remember God's faithfulness

a good busy yet awesome day

and all these, simply because

i have a good God.

Thank You once again. :)

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i was reminded of a scenario today, on the topic of 'drowning'

here goes:
is there any area of my life that i'm still struggling with?
is there any area of my life that i'm still not letting go?
is there any?

God is our lifeguard agree?
What does lifeguards do when they see a drowning person? Wouldn't they come to the rescue?

You would prolly then ask how come God doesn't come to the rescue as soon as we're drowning, would you?

As how a real lifeguard would react, a lifeguard would only come to the rescue when you stop struggling. This is simply because that they know that they would prolly be dragged down along with you, if you are to struggle while they are trying to help you out.

Similarly, God will come to the rescue when you stop struggling. Give it all to Him, He's more than willing to shoulder it for you. He did that, and will always do that, as long as you allow. No, i'm not saying that God is limited, being only able to save you when you stop struggling.

Rather, what i meant was that He respects our decisions and wills. We can continue to struggle and maybe see some results. But ultimately, we can't. So why not give Him a try? I know you'll love it. :D

Till i blog again

Shouldering

2010-07-08T00:36:00.003+08:00

Question:
How many of you like carrying weights on your shoulder?

Answer:
I doubt anyone likes that feeling of putting on extra weights on your shoulder, beyond your comfortable limit

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Today, i was rather disturbed in my spirit, cuz satan is being an asshole lately [ bloody mean, pardon my language ]!
I tried to shoulder as many issues as i could, as if i could really help...

I recalled myself once praying that 'Lord, expend my concern radius' .. and that's what He's doing, but it's getting harder, cuz im now concern about so many things...

I felt sorrow in my spirit, for the evil things that the loser is doing in the lives of people around me, i ~~was~~ AM angry with him!

I know you're going down, and i'm going for a sure-win [ already won ] war with Christ as my General, King, and Savior! So, you lay your hands off the people i know, they belong to Christ, and Christ is their Savior. you have no right to touch them, so leave them alone.

I proclaim healing (physical and emotional), strength, wisdom, joy, grace, favor and peace to be upon every single person i know. I bind every works of the evil one. Shalom in the lives of people in my life.

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And i choose to lay it all down, knowing that He HAD shouldered it all upon that wonderful cross.

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I choose to lay it all down, because He shouldered it all.

If i would have chose to carry it on myself, it's almost like i'm saying that 'God, You could have done better' or 'God, what You did weren't good enough' or sentences like these... and i know that ISN'T the case...

So Jesus, take over, as You've said that all who are tired and worn out can come to You and get refreshed.. so i'm coming to You again, laying it all down, at Your feet, cuz even the best of me, is comparable to the slightest of You.

Matthew 11:28 (The Message)

28-30"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

I thank You Lord that You care for us even more than the lilies of field [ even King Solomon's robe is not comparable to the lilies ]

And i believe that You are in control, supreme over all situation and problems.

Lord, it's all in Your hands, i surrender it all. Teach, guide, and walk with me.

Amen.

bigger than my problems, bigger than my tiredness, bigger than my inability, His name is Jesus.

Till i blog again

Week 5, Day 1 [ 10/11 ]

2010-07-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yes, even though it's just day 1 of week 5, i feel so tired.
Eye barely opening now.

Partly cuz i was traveling quite a bit today, on the road, that is.
Driving back and forth between KL and Cyber..
Finding parking space in TBR was the worse, but thank God for the parking space!

And yea, finally, i went and collect my diploma certificate today! haaha

Here you go:

The results wasn't like super-gila-good.. kindda average, but i still wanna thank God that i completed it, and enjoyed my time back in TARC.

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I did what i needed to do today, rather productive, but friggin tired now.. so yea, just wanted to blog this, and go to bed.

Oh, on a side note, my new shoes was stolen :( [ 5 weeks ~~old~~ NEW! ]
Bum equipment summore :\

and i havent even take pictures of them..

oh well, time to apply what i've learned on Sunday i suppose!
Lord, i mau claim 7X joy and 7X pairs of new shoes! :D :D

And Lord, i wanna thank You for this coming week! Thank You for the good health and strength i'll be having, thank You for the good health and strength my friends and family will be having. Thank You for Your grace and favour that is upon us all!

Thank You for the wisdom i'll be needing this week. For the time management, for the peace, for the joy, for the wealth, for everything i would be needing!

And Thank you for the goodnight sleep i'll be having later.

Buenas noches amigos! Nos vemos el martes por la maňana!
[ Good night friends! See you on Tuesday morning! ]

Till i blog again

Through Christ

2010-07-04T15:10:00.002+08:00

i claim that i've laid these down
i wonder how much do i really mean it
it seems like i'm still holding back some
for what purpose?

nevertheless, i'm still gonna run this race
with the grace, oh so great
surrendering all, giving Him my highest respect
giving Him the highest place once again

cuz there's just so much i can do
incomparable to His ways, and wisdom
so yea, i'm gonna lay it all down again
at Your feet, as a offering, as a worship

Through Christ
-Generation Unleashed

intro:
C F C F

verse1:
C
When the darkness tries
F
to hide my way
C
Your word is the light
F
that guides my faith
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You

verse2:
C
When my heart is weak
F
and i've lost my way
C
i will lift up my eyes
F
and choose to say
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You

chorus:
C G Am
i can do all things through Christ
F C
i can move a mountain if You
Am G
are the strength of my life
C G Am
i can do all things through Christ
F G C
if You are the strength of my life

C F C F

verse3:
C
in Your presence i find
F
strength renewed
C
i found courage to stand
F
and a hope that is new
Am F
i will trust in You
C G
i will trust in You

bridge:
Am F C/E G X 2

Am
when every trials come my way
F
i will worship You always
C/E G
forever trust in Your unfailing love
Am
when every doubt or fear or shame
F
i shall hear Your voice within
C/E G
forever trust in Your unfailing love

p/s: gonna read 'Destined to Reign' again.. Lord, more revelations, more grace to teach and live grace.

Till i blog again

4. How to get calibrated? [ Romans 12:2 ]

2010-06-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

[ CF comm retreat 10 April 2010 ]

So here's what I want you to do, God helping you:
Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you. (Romans 12:2 - The Message)

I lay it all down again; less Martha, more Mary; grace, wisdom, strength, but most importantly, You;

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Random:
For the sake of world cup fever, in conjunction with taking up spanish language... Spain FTW. :)))

Till i blog again

Life Manual [ Matthew 7 ]

2010-06-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

Matthew 7(The Message)

A Simple Guide for Behavior
1-5 "Don't pick on people, jump on their failures, criticize their faults— unless, of course, you want the same treatment. That critical spirit has a way of boomeranging. It's easy to see a smudge on your neighbor's face and be oblivious to the ugly sneer on your own. Do you have the nerve to say, 'Let me wash your face for you,' when your own face is distorted by contempt? It's this whole traveling road-show mentality all over again, playing a holier-than-thou part instead of just living your part. Wipe that ugly sneer off your own face, and you might be fit to offer a washcloth to your neighbor.

6"Don't be flip with the sacred. Banter and silliness give no honor to God. Don't reduce holy mysteries to slogans. In trying to be relevant, you're only being cute and inviting sacrilege.

7-11"Don't bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This isn't a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we're in. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn't think of such a thing. You're at least decent to your own children. So don't you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?

12"Here is a simple, rule-of-thumb guide for behavior: Ask yourself what you want people to do for you, then grab the initiative and do it for them. Add up God's Law and Prophets and this is what you get.

Being and Doing
13-14"Don't look for shortcuts to God. The market is flooded with surefire, easygoing formulas for a successful life that can be practiced in your spare time. Don't fall for that stuff, even though crowds of people do. The way to life—to God!—is vigorous and requires total attention.

15-20"Be wary of false preachers who smile a lot, dripping with practiced sincerity. Chances are they are out to rip you off some way or other. Don't be impressed with charisma; look for character. Who preachers are is the main thing, not what they say. A genuine leader will never exploit your emotions or your pocketbook. These diseased trees with their bad apples are going to be chopped down and burned.

21-23"Knowing the correct password—saying 'Master, Master,' for instance— isn't going to get you anywhere with me. What is required is serious obedience—doing what my Father wills. I can see it now—at the Final Judgment thousands strutting up to me and saying, 'Master, we preached the Message, we bashed the demons, our God-sponsored projects had everyone talking.' And do you know what I am going to say? 'You missed the boat. All you did was use me to make yourselves important. You don't impress me one bit. You're out of here.'

24-25"These words I speak to you are not incidental additions to your life, homeowner improvements to your standard of living. They are foundational words, words to build a life on. If you work these words into your life, you are like a smart carpenter who built his house on solid rock. Rain poured down, the river flooded, a tornado hit—but nothing moved that house. It was fixed to the rock.

26-27"But if you just use my words in Bible studies and don't work them into your life, you are like a stupid carpenter who built his house on the sandy beach. When a storm rolled in and the waves came up, it collapsed like a house of cards."

28-29When Jesus concluded his address, the crowd burst into applause. They had never heard teaching like this. It was apparent that he was living everything he was saying—quite a contrast to their religion teachers! This was the best teaching they had ever heard.

Teach me, change me, guide me. Amen.

Till i blog again

Words of Encouragement [ Hebrews 12 ]

2010-06-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

Hebrews 12
Discipline in a Long-Distance Race
1-3Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we'd better get on with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he's there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility he plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls!

4-11In this all-out match against sin, others have suffered far worse than you, to say nothing of what Jesus went through—all that bloodshed! So don't feel sorry for yourselves. Or have you forgotten how good parents treat children, and that God regards you as his children?

My dear child, don't shrug off God's discipline,
but don't be crushed by it either.
It's the child he loves that he disciplines;
the child he embraces, he also corrects.
God is educating you; that's why you must never drop out. He's treating you as dear children. This trouble you're in isn't punishment; it's training, the normal experience of children. Only irresponsible parents leave children to fend for themselves. Would you prefer an irresponsible God? We respect our own parents for training and not spoiling us, so why not embrace God's training so we can truly live? While we were children, our parents did what seemed best to them. But God is doing what is best for us, training us to live God's holy best. At the time, discipline isn't much fun. It always feels like it's going against the grain. Later, of course, it pays off handsomely, for it's the well-trained who find themselves mature in their relationship with God.

12-13So don't sit around on your hands! No more dragging your feet! Clear the path for long-distance runners so no one will trip and fall, so no one will step in a hole and sprain an ankle. Help each other out. And run for it!

14-17Work at getting along with each other and with God. Otherwise you'll never get so much as a glimpse of God. Make sure no one gets left out of God's generosity. Keep a sharp eye out for weeds of bitter discontent. A thistle or two gone to seed can ruin a whole garden in no time. Watch out for the Esau syndrome: trading away God's lifelong gift in order to satisfy a short-term appetite. You well know how Esau later regretted that impulsive act and wanted God's blessing—but by then it was too late, tears or no tears.
An Unshakable Kingdom
18-21Unlike your ancestors, you didn't come to Mount Sinai—all that volcanic blaze and earthshaking rumble—to hear God speak. The earsplitting words and soul-shaking message terrified them and they begged him to stop. When they heard the words—"If an animal touches the Mountain, it's as good as dead"—they were afraid to move. Even Moses was terrified.

22-24No, that's not your experience at all. You've come to Mount Zion, the city where the living God resides. The invisible Jerusalem is populated by throngs of festive angels and Christian citizens. It is the city where God is Judge, with judgments that make us just. You've come to Jesus, who presents us with a new covenant, a fresh charter from God. He is the Mediator of this covenant. The murder of Jesus, unlike Abel's—a homicide that cried out for vengeance—became a proclamation of grace.

25-27So don't turn a deaf ear to these gracious words. If those who ignored earthly warnings didn't get away with it, what will happen to us if we turn our backs on heavenly warnings? His voice that time shook the earth to its foundations; this time—he's told us this quite plainly—he'll also rock the heavens: "One last shaking, from top to bottom, stem to stern." The phrase "one last shaking" means a thorough housecleaning, getting rid of all the historical and religious junk so that the unshakable essentials stand clear and uncluttered.

28-29Do you see what we've got? An unshakable kingdom! And do you see how thankful we must be? Not only thankful, but brimming with worship, deeply reverent before God. For God is not an indifferent bystander. He's actively cleaning house, torching all that needs to burn, and he won't quit until it's all cleansed. God himself is Fire!

May the Word of God bless and guide you. Amen.

Till i blog again

Graduation!

2010-06-17T14:59:00.000+08:00

Last Monday, i graduated from the "Six Months School"

Well, technically there wasn't any school.. but i was under a period of medication, after medication, after medication, for 6 months due to the TB virus that i caught (or did it catch me? lol) anyways, yea... so i went for my checkup on Monday..

As usual, i placed in my appointment card and waited for my turn to 'take number' ... eventually, i went for the X-ray and sputum test.

Results of the Sputum test goes like this: "Direct Smear of AFB: No ____ Seen" (i forgot what's the word there edi.. lol)

But yea.. it's a good news.. :D

Next up, i went for the x-ray test.. and walla! Clear lungs, and if i'm not mistaken, i did not see any hole left~! Wohoo... despite doctors saying the hole might remain there because lung cells doesn't grow and patch back.. I placed my trust in God, and yes.. awesomeness!!

Too bad my camera wasn't with me, else, i would have taken a shot of it as a prove. The 'good news' is that i would still have another checkup appointment in September, hopefully, i would remember to bring my camera with me the next time i go.

Praise God... i'm off from medications, i don't have to constantly remind myself to take my meds on certain days or certain hours... but i guess it made me a better man throughout the entire 6 months training.

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This new semester has been awesome thus far. Despite me saying that i would be choosing the simpler subjects for this semester, i did some changes to my timetable, i decided to take up Java instead of Multimedia presentation and management...

Along with that, the other elective subject that i'm taking looks rather simple (Software Engineering) in terms of it's content, but yet, the given assignment is rather challenging.. which is awesome, IMHO.. i'd get the chance to learn PHP, ASP, or even JSP depending the language that i wanna use.. and i get to learn MySQL and all those 'important' languages needed to be a web developer... which is AWESOME!! :D

Asides from studies, CF has been great too. Thank God for all the new comers, i pray that they'll feel belonged and welcomed. But most importantly that they will constantly walk with You even throughout their university life here in Cyberjaya.

My first committee planning last weekend was nice. It's great to know that God is moving among us. It's just such a great assurance, and better still, on Sunday, the sunday message was rather similar to what the theme of CF was for this coming year.

Praise God for He is all knowing and mighty, yet mysterious in His ways. But that's just plain awesomeness, rite? :D

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Stop striving with your own strength. Flow with the grace of God. Favor and revelations are gonna keep pouring in, sufficient for all the good works planned ahead. With God, nothing is impossible.

Fellow readers, God bless you! He's all you would need, in fact, more than you imagine. Seek and you shall find :)

Have a blessed week ahead!

Till i blog again

was i wrong?

2010-06-08T17:19:00.000+08:00

was it wrong for me to walk away when the cashier miscalculate the total amount and ensured me its the right amount after i told him he gave me the extras?

i think i was wrong.. but i needed the toilet badly -.-

to the cashier.. im sorry but i think you'd have to come up with that extra RM30 u gave me -.-

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anyways, im back from my UK - Europe trip..

its was fun.. yet very very long..

i loved the weather, and trying to re-adjust back to the Msian weather..

photos? plenty... Q: why didnt upload?

cuz they're not with me now..

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Oh yea, my results came out... almost as what i anticipated. Praise God, i manage to get my first A+ in MMU..xD

i had 3 A(s) [ specifically A+,A and A- ]
1 B- and a C+

Thank God i made it through (better than i thought) even with the 4 day final-exam-combo..

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the new sem has started.. i thought i was quite settled with the timetable that i arranged and registered...

but im now in the dilemma of wheter or not to continue on with a certain subject cuz i think im not gonna enjoy the semester with a particular lecturer teaching..

i dun hate him/her.. i just find the way he/she teaches ineffective and rather dull..

God, lead me .. i guess thats it...
Till i blog again

Sudden silence

2010-05-11T23:13:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy

....

*silence*

Games no longer appeal as much as they do during the exam period
Facebook gets boring after a while
The thought of watching a movie died off

The body feels tired, yet numb towards rest
The eyes sees double vision, desperately asking for a timeout
Yet i'm posting a post here.

Anyways,
Exams for this semester is over. I hope to see at least 3 'A's and hopefully pass the other 2 >_:))

and oh, i joined a facebook - French Connection Malaysia (FCUK) competition.. the link can be found here

Do click the 'Like' button, if you like it yea xD
but like i wrote in the comment section,

truth be told.. i'll prolly not be around to receive the prize cuz ill be on hols.. haha

but yes, thanks again :D

[ do like the FCUK Malaysia too.. help them promo hahha ]

So yea, wheter you like it or not, it's just for the fun of it la .. haha..

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To those who had yet to finish your papers and yet to even start them, my heart goes out for you (haha)

All the best, do your best, God will reward you :)
And a happy holiday in advance :)

For the rest who have finished their battle.. happy holidays :D

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I had a fun time waking up someone this morning.. lol.. thank God he manage to wake up for his exam..
and thank God that his next paper on Thursday is in the noon (reduces the hassle of waking him up) XD

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My assignment this week: SHOPPING... it's harder than it sounds, cuz i don't normally do shopping.. except well for gadgets.. hahaha.. due date: Thursday 13th May 2010.

Wish me luck.. xD

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Till i blog again

Blown away, once again.

2010-05-05T00:14:00.001+08:00

*swooooooosh* (blown away sound effect cue in)

Had an awesome day today. first paper this sem was orite. hopefully i can get my first A+ paper in MMU this sem .. haha :))

current status: 20% completion.

Kindda still preparing for my next paper, OS.

Anyways, here's some awesome clip of awesome creations He made long long time ago..

Sonic Gun.. awesome stuff... i would love to have it xD... (without those claw-like hand tho) .. could cook my food anytime :))

Back to the title... i was simply just blown away at His creativity, wisdom, design and for who He is..

now, back to studying. xD [ Have a great week ahead peeps ... it all depends wheter u want it or not ;) ]

Till i blog again

EDIT::
side note / draft:

Just got a random thought and no place to jot down, so i just write it down here.

Have you had those experience where you have a question, and an answer.. but have no idea how to obtain the solution?

Sometimes, the how-to isn't the important part.

It's what the solution does that makes the difference, right? [ yes, of cuz if you know how to obtain the solution, you'll be able to repeat it... but to say that you're 100% able to obtain the same answer is fair IMHO ]

Christ died, and rose, today He lives and reign from heaven above
He set-ed you free. free from sin, free from pain, free from eternal judgement.

I doubt anyone is able to repeat it..

so, the solution is there. would you accept it?

CF Newsletter 09/10

2010-05-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

And so, the CF newsletter is finally out..

here's some preview, and you can get them @ http://www.zshare.net/download/7555023563353290/

or by clicking this link

P/s: to all my fellow comrades in the battlefield. Let's fight the good fight. Push till it ends. Looking back without regrets ;)

[ oh crap... lots more to study ]

:))

Till i blog again

Gadgets [ Random ]

2010-04-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

When Clarence looks at a gadget over an hour.
It usually leads to building up the nation with money circulation.

hint:

4BF8EBFC8BF453B857DE8FB27093C4C514FF

Keyword: bright

Till i blog again

p/s: yes, im totally aware that i'm supposed to be studying...

:))

This morning.

2010-04-27T16:12:00.007+08:00

This morning, i woke up, early, ( not that i don't wake up early on normal days ) just to do my subject registration at 9.00 am.

Praise God, i manage to register the subjects i planned to take.. well asides from Hindi/Tamil language.

	Subject Code	Subject Description	Lecture Section	Tutorial Section	Hours
1	BHM3086	LAW FOR ENGINEERS	EC301	ECA01	3
2	ECP3076	DATABASE SYSTEMS	EC301	ECA02	3
3	ECP4156	SOFTWARE ENGINEERING	EC301	ECA02	3
4	EMM3036	MULTIMEDIA MANAGEMENT AND PRESENTATION	EC301	ECA01	3
5	ETM2046	ANALOG AND DIGITAL COMMUNICATIONS	EC302	ECB01	3
6	LSB1010	SPANISH FOR BEGINNERS	EC301	-	3
				Total :	18

ill see how.. might change some subjects tho.. still considering.. but as of now, yes, back to study, next week ultra-super-combo again ;)

Just a reminder, these are my exam dates:
4,5,6,7
11

and yes, praise God.. no Saturday classes..

but i couldnt join my group of friends for Analog and Digital Comm... hopefully the assignment won't kill me la..

and for my fellow stalkers in campus, here's my timetable for next sem :))

And lastly, to all my friends who are facing exams and such.. if you think you cant.. He can ;)

and chords for you music lovers ;)

intro:
C F C F

verse1:
C
when the darkness tries
F
to hide my way
C
your word is the light
F
that guides my faith
Am F
i will trust in you
C G
i will trust in you

verse2:
C
when my heart is weak
F
and i've lost my way
C
i will lift up my eyes
F
and choose to say
Am F
i will trust in you
C G
i will trust in you

chorus:
C G Am
i can do all things through christ
F C
i can move a mountain if you
Am G
are the strength of my life
C G Am
i can do all things through christ
F G C
if you are the strength of my life

C F C F

verse3:
C
in your presence i find
F
strength renewed
C
i found courage to stand
F
and a hope that is new
Am F
i will trust in you
C G
i will trust in you

bridge:
Am F C/E G X 2

Am
when every trials come my way
F
i will worship you always
C/E G
forever trust in your unfailing love
Am
when every doubt or fear or shame
F
i shall hear your voice within
C/E G
forever trust in your unfailing love

*EDIT:
Timetable slightly changed.
song added

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Apparently...

2010-04-14T22:42:00.001+08:00

i got bared from my final exams. because:

9. 09-04-10 CC01011309 Insurance for Session 2010/2011 RM 55.00

and my cimb bank account is at RM 10.30

worry not, im not in financial crisis. but i just don't have that amount with me in my CIMB bank, thus, i can't do any online transaction to clear the bill.

And oh, they slot in that item on the 9th of April... which is the last day to pay up the bills...

obviously almost everyone would pay up their bills before the last day right?

who would actually check on the last day....

thankfully i had friends who saw this and notified me...

if not, i'd have been bared for no apparent reason..

To the person in charge...
wth?

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currently in the midst of busyness... deadline after deadlines... duedates after duedates... assignments after assignments... quizzes after quizzes

but it's coming to an end...

finals coming up... hardly prepared.

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went for my medical checkup this morning. results would be out on monday. so stay tuned.

Till i blog again

Food

2010-04-05T10:30:00.005+08:00

I was doing a study on food recently for my Technical Communication paper. Doing so has caused me to think and go deeper.

Food! A simple thing as such yet, everyone eats on a daily basis. Everyone, especially Asians, are passionate about it and gets connected easily through 'makan' (translated as eating) sessions.

Everyone who is working, is plainly working so that they're able to provide for their family and for themselves.

During my diploma years, i had this subject that thought me about the "Maslow's hierarchy of needs". The diagram belows describes the hierarchy.

Image taken from wikipedia
From the diagram, Maslow describes that one needs to fulfill their physiological needs first, then slowly moving up the hierarchy towards self actualization.

When i thought deeper, i realize that it's also same in the spiritual world, though in the spiritual realm, the hierarchy would have different items in it. What i meant by saying it's similar is that, if you're not getting your spiritual food, and yet you desire to serve and be a blessing to others, it can get really tough!

Imagine a beggar trying to bless others, i'm not saying it's impossible, but how much can he give, right?

I've known of many people who desires to be a blessing to others, be it family or friends or even the community, but they find it hard because they themselves are not having enough. So, this is my urge to you, feed yourselves with spiritual food. Eat and feast in the presence of the Lord. I bet you'll feel refreshed and strengthen after you've had your spiritual food.

Mind you, i'm not 'being spiritual' ... i simply know the fact that the spiritual aspect of life is as real as you're physical life can get. One of my friend used to tell me this:

You may be strong in your physical appearance, but don't be shocked if one day you find that your spiritual-self is a thin fella.

Yes, i do understand it's hard to comprehend the spiritual aspect of life. Cuz you can't see it, with your natural eyes. Here's a prayer you can pray: "Lord, i desire to understand more about the spiritual aspect of life, open up my spiritual eyes that i may know You more. In the Name of Jesus i pray. Amen"

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i was about to blog this and i saw Dawson's blogpost which is talking about something similar. Coincidence? Well, it's up to you to perceive. It's just prolly God's timing of things ;)

Till i blog again

And so....

2010-03-31T01:12:00.001+08:00

And so,
i agreed to take up the offer to be one of the Vice Presidents of CFMMU(Christian Fellowship) 10/11.

It's a beginning of something i'm not used to, a beginning of something beyond my comfort zone.

Nevertheless,
Lord have Your way. I'm open to Your leading. In fact, i need Your guidance.

Strength to lead and be a source of strength.
Wisdom to guide and discern.
Peace in times of trouble, and over troubled waters.
Grace to soar, and live out my calling.

It ain't gonna be comfortable.
But it's gonna worth it.
Cuz lives are gonna get saved, transformed, renewed, and restored.

I know i'm just not there yet.
Lord, more training Lord.

Let me continually have a teachable heart.
A heart that's humble, a heart that bears Your fountain of life.
A heart of compassion, a heart of a servant.
A heart that's ready for You to mold.
A heart after Yours.

Reason I Live - Planet shakers

I was no one when i first met You
I had nothing of worth in my life
But then i found You and it all became clear
You're the one that i've been searching for

From the start i couldn't figure it out
Why someone like You would die for me
But i know that Your love for me is so great
And that is why im giving You my life

I am Yours every part of me
Jesus You're the reason i live
Take my life lord and use me as You will
Jesus You're the reason i live

I can't believe that You're with me til forever
I'll never leave you and You'll never leave me
It's what i long for Your presence here in my life
Cos You're the air i breathe my reason why

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To the current CF comms, thank you for being an encouragement and example.

To my fellow comms-to-be, let's run this race together with Him, by His strength and grace. Always remember we're not going through this alone.
We're not perfect, He is. We might be weak, but He's our source of strength.

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Time to finish up some revision and assignments. Quiz @ 3pm tmr.

Till i blog again

Parable [ K, P, P, F ]

2010-03-26T23:37:00.010+08:00

[ K, P, P, F ] = [ Key, Prison, Prisoners, Freedom ]
The title was alil too long, so i had to shorten it xD.

Caution:
The following blog post may cause you to think again.

Have you been in sticky situations where you feel like you're in a jail?
Have you undergone moments in life where you find life impossible?
Have you been in circumstances where you just wish that you've freedom the moment you wanted/needed it?

Well here it is, an article that would potentially set you free. If you open up yourself to the idea i'm trying to convey here!

Now, imagine this, imagine that you're in a jail, locked up with other prisoners. You have lost contact to the outside world!
And imagine that there's a bunch of keys(eg: 1000 sets of keys) lying there on the ground,
*Now, it sounds simple right? Come on, just pick up the keys, and open up the jail bars!*

And oh, to 'make things harder', the Keys actually came and found you.

But, are you willing to pick them up? I mean, who wants to touch the key that moves, right?
The keys are waiting for anyone of you to pick it up! Yes, it's that simple, you just have to pick em up!

Unless and until one of you picks it up, and actually uses it, nothing will happen, even though freedom is just locks(eg: 1000 locks) away.

Seriously, you can't expect a jail to be only secured by a lock right? What good will that jail serve right? haha!

Many of us, are in fact, prisoners;
Prisoners in different areas of our lives. Some of us might have problem dealing with our anger, some guilt, some lust, some pride, some rage, and the list can go on and on.

Yet, many however, do not see the key which is lying on the ground. We're too caught up in our situations, we fail to see what God has done and prepared for us. Some might be so caught up in their own situation, that even when someone else picks 'em up, they're not even bothered!

It's sad that we can blinded to the things which are placed before us. Some might feel so defeated, so defeated that even the keys to freedom seem like rubbish. Isn't that just sad?

Now, imagine someone picking up the key, but after a few rounds of trying, that person gives up. He got fed up, because there's just so many keys and so many locks.

And "to make it worst", each lock can only be opened by one set of key.

Note that most of us only see the negative, we fail to see that it's possible for us to break free, as long as we keep trying, cuz the keys are there! Giving up not a solution, it's not gonna bring you anywhere near freedom!

Here's the different part!!! Read up!

The keys and locks are numbered coded!!

WOHOO!

Doesn't that make things even easier!??!

In life, it's the same. We are in fact, bound by many obstacles and difficulties, bound by time, space and even law. The sad part is that, sometimes, we fail to see that we have the key(not far from us) to victories living!

In this parable, i'm trying to convey the message that Jesus is the Key! We're trapped in this world which is filled with moral values that are somewhat corrupted. Even the best of us is incomparable to what God has placed as standards for us. However, the thing that's turns the whole situation around is that Jesus has paid the price; paid the price so that we may live victoriously! In fact, He came from HEAVEN (i.e: outside world), down to the earth where you and me have lost our 'communication with the outside world' (i.e: God Himself). He's the key to many 'locks' that are seemingly impossible!

Now back to they bunch of 1000 keys.... consider this, unless you know the keys better, or best, 'inside out', you'd take a long time to open up each locks, right? Now am i making more sense? Remember me saying about the keys being number coded? It's the same, unless you know which number is linked with which lock, it'll still take you forever to unlock those locks!

It's the same, unless you know Christ, you wouldn't know how to overcome certain challenges with ease. It's true that some of us are 'locksmiths' to a certain degree, we're able to get away with one of two or even a few locks, but as humans, we're limited. There's bound to be locks that we're unable to open, locks that will pull us down. Why not pick up the keys placed before you? Wouldn't that make life easier? Especially when the keys came to you, and best still, they are numbered!

In the same context, i would like to stress again that, you need to know your keys to unlock your locks! You need to know Jesus(the Key of keys!) to unlock & overcome your problems that are weighting you down!

Lastly, why struggle? When the keys are placed before you, waiting for you to pick up, and the best part, it's all numbered!

Awesome Quotes:

I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
-Jesus (John 14:6)

Till i blog again

How far have we strayed?

2010-03-25T21:54:00.003+08:00

Looking at the world around you, big and small incidents or event, it definitely make one to wonder what have become-d of us, humans.

I was reading through posts, blogs, and articles, oh how my heart aches to see what have we become, i may be young, i may be inexperienced, but one thing i know..

The life that we're living has so much more, and we've strayed oh so far..

There's just this pain in my spirit, wanting to cry out to my Father in heaven, who loves all of us, despite of what we've become-d.

Teach me Dad,
I've no idea what's this sudden concern and passion towards the world is about..
But i know it's for the good..
Teach me how to pray and intercede,
Teach me how to lead them back to the roads where You will lies,
Teach me how to be the one You've molded and molding me to be,
Teach me.

You'll Come - Hillsong United

Verse 1
I have decided I have resolved
To wait upon you Lord
My rock and redeemer shall not be moved
I'll wait upon you Lord

Pre Chorus
As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears

Chorus
You'll come let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit reign flood our hearts
With holy fire again

Verse 2
We are not shaken we are not moved
We wait upon you Lord
Our Mighty deliverer my triumph and truth
I'll wait upon you Lord

Bridge
Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened
Christ is revealed

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Today

2010-03-18T01:12:00.003+08:00

Apologies for my being away. was busy, still is, but am willing to spend some time off my 'self-made-hectic-schedule'

Today was a different day, technically, everyone's today was different, cuz there's no 2 exact same days.. i think.

Anyways, last week's Apostolic Program was awesome! Wish i could be there this week, it was a privilege being a host, and soaking in God's presence everyday last week...

God reminded me of quite a few things during the AP, pointed out areas that requires a change, areas that i've yet to submit and surrender, areas that i've yet to lay down... and the such..

It was difficult, especially giving up things that are seemingly 'good' or normal in the eyes of the world... Nevertheless, i was liberated when i decided to give in to His ways, after all, His way's are higher than ours, rite?

Anyways, i can't write much now, as i have a quiz in 9 hour's time, and it's kindda bed time now... so yea, and i just started reading.. haha .. it's a open book test.. that's why the delay? xD

To the friends made last week,

continue running the race that's you're in,
it's too early to give in,
His grace is sufficient for all that is to come,
He is ABLE! He is ABLE!

Planetshakers - Today
Intro: C F Am F (x2)

C Am
I don’t wanna waste a second
G F
I don’t wanna waste a moment
C Am F
I don’t wanna live my life in chance

C Am
I am here to make You famous
G F
And tell the world You came to save us
C Am F
I am here to make a change today

Am C
For the sake of this generation
F Dm
I live for You
Am C
For the hope of the world’s salvation
F
I live for You

C F
Today, I’m living for You
Am F
Today, my heart beats for you
C F Am F
Today, I’m following You Lord, today
C F
Today, I'm standing for You
Am F
Today, I’m looking to You
C F Am F
Today, I’m following You Lord, today

Am C F Dm
I live all for the glory of Your name
Am C F Dm
I live to see this generation saved
Am C F Dm
I live to see Your love abound in all the earth
Am C F
I live for You

I can't seem to get the beat right for the strumming... :(

Practice makes perfect eh?

Till i blog again

In the midsts of....

2010-03-03T16:58:00.005+08:00

In the midsts of a ultra-combo-super-stress-midterm-week, the worst kind of news to expect is the "same" ultra-combo-super-stress-FINALS-week ...

Oh man, what's wrong with them? Combo-ing my exams like this... blergh..

Subject Code	Date	Session
ETM2036	04-05-2010	MORNING
ECP2066	05-05-2010	AFTERNOON
EPM2036	06-05-2010	MORNING
ECP2056	07-05-2010	MORNING
LES1010	11-05-2010	MORNING

And oh, the combo exams are my major papers.. and they conveniently left the 'extra' paper aside.. sigh~!

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On the bright side, i have extra holidays?

Turn on NERD mode?

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LOL... to add to the not-enough-given-stressness, the LES lecturer decided to ask my group to do the Mock Meeting tomorrow morning..

and yea, this is officially the most ULTRA-SUPER-DUPER-MEGA-X10000-COMBO

Quiz on Monday, Midterm on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday, and Mock meeting on Thursday and a Lab on Wednesday...

What a nice week.. rite?

Excluding the midterms, i had Brother, & Sister Appreciation Day (BSAD) on Tuesday, i think that's the best part of the week.. hahahaha

Till i blog again

Firmware Error!

2010-02-26T16:11:00.009+08:00

anyone wanna remind me why im doing engineering again?

cuz i suck at where formulas and equation exist...

=﹏="

someone please help me upgrade my firmware..

my firmware in Christ.

Till i blog again

Dark Side?

2010-02-24T21:23:00.008+08:00

A few friends asked me if i've gone darker..
asked if i went to the beach/played under the sun recently..

my answer was no. and the blame goes to the TB medications, and most of them find it hard to believe.

well you're not alone. even i do.

Have i joined the dark side? bright not more? darn...

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On a random note,

It used to be easy for me to answer people/quizzes on the question: "What is your favorite color?"

After being a designer for some time, i find it ever hard to give a straight answer to that simple question. bleh..

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some quick updates:

1) good news: no quiz and midterm this week.... awesomeness!

2) bad news: quiz and 'the' midterm is postponed to next week... i.e. next week got 1 quiz and at least 3 midterms... wth [→﹏→]" .. and oh, to add on it.. some lecturer decided to reschedule some replacement class to the day before the midterm papers.. people wanna study lerr.

:(

3) good news: today's the first day im on the new medications... wooots! this means i have 3 more months and 14 days left!

4) bad news: the new medication very troublesome, need to 'split' the pill.. blergh!

5) good news: i was schedule to be on duty for the archery booth today.. even though i've not been going for practices for the past almost 2 semesters, woots! my skill hasn't really got dulled yet xD

6) "bad" news: i'm not gonna join archery club again next semester, at least not as a committee again. i've got other task to be prioritized.
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EDIT:
BUGS ATTACK! and im sorta allergic to bug's bites.. had been scratching all day long.. blergh..

right after i posted this, then i read through a short devotion material...

Song of Solomon 4:7
You are all fair, my love, and there is no spot in you.

Dark no more?
;))

Till i blog again...

updates

2010-02-22T16:35:00.004+08:00

1) i went to the respiratory center this morning.. everything went smooth. did a sputum and xray scan/test again ( i wonder how many cells died this time >.< ) ... anyways, the infected area is significantly smaller, the cavity is now almost as small as the tip of my pinky, medications has reduced significantly also.. now im only having 3 types of medication, with a total of 5.5 pills for monday, wednesday and fridays..

2) am busy, yet free, cuz dunno how to start/lazy wanna start -.-

to do list:

1) reformat lappy, win 7 evaluation period ending in 8 days #-o

2) Study, study, study .... 1 quiz, 1 mid term this week; 2 midterms next week .. like a waterfall, suddenly come >_<

3) finish lab report... should have finished it by last week, actually... but i didnt bring my bad and stuffs home, thus the delay -.-

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things to thank God for:

1) i couldn't find my hp charger, tried using some chaplang usb-usb mini cable at home to charge, but it didnt work.. thank God the cable in cyber works..
2) thank God the checkup today went well
3) for me to be alive..

Till i blog again... back to work now